- Diary of a Barmaid - - Page 3

Rebecca · 17th December 2007, 05:36 PM

Monday 17. December

Been some days, since I last wrote a bit in my diary.

I feel a little better, than last time I wrote in my diary.
Guess it's when your sad - Your true friends appear and bless Marcus, his been there for me all the
time. Trying to tell me, that I aint a bad person - Considering what I did towards Hedlyn.

But for some reason, I still miss Hedlyn or maybe, it's just the thought of beeing alone, that scares
the living shite out of me!
After we broke up, I rarely see him anymore - and I assume he moved on. I
hope the girl that gets him, will be better to him, than I ever was.

I decided, that I wanted a day of so I could spend a little time with Sioned. Before she woke up,
I had placed the Christmas stockings at the kamin in the house and left a candy cane and a emeral-
bracelet in it for her. I even placed a little piece of coal in my own.

So my Angel woke up. And she was a biiiig smile - As soon as she spotted her stocking, she could
barely wait and I watched her when she digged into her stocking and found the candy cane and her
new bracelet. Bless her. It don't take much to satisfy that lil' lass.
I think, she loved the bracelet, because it was in her favorite colour of metal.

She looked at my stocking and asked if I had checked mine. I shoke my head and digged my hand
down and pulled out the coal. If Hedlyn had seen her face, he would have bursted out laughing!
Sioned opend her eyes wide open and outbursted "Oi! Becca - Yer been bad! Santa only gives coals
for the naugthy ones!" Oh, Sioned my little Angel - If you just knew how bad, I've been - Hurting
your Daddy's feelings so much, that he wanted his freedom.

I still struggle with myself - In a way, I wanna confess and tell her, why her Daddy aint so much
arround Vesper.. But again, I'm also scared, than I'll end up pushing her way, since she loves
her Daddy so much. I know, I would - If someone had treated my Dad, as I treated hers.

I have alot of small presents for her tugged away on a safe place, where she won't find them.
I wonder, what she will say for her next little present. I placed it earlier this eve.

Sioned came and asked me earlier, if she could go and play with a lass named Emma.
If someone ever can say no to Sio - I will be shocked, that little Angel so wraps me around her
piggy finger - And truth be told, I don't mind it. It puts a smile on my lips in these annoying and lonely
times.

So when Sioned was playing with Emma - I went out trying to gather something special for her.
It took me quiet a while, but now I have it and I plan it should be some of her presents for Christmas.
Gawd, I need a hobby - Who, beeing sane will slay that many Soles..and then collect 10.000 doubloons
and not to mention all the gems.

I wanna bet - 100 doubloons, that Tom will be impressed next time he see Bandit - My tame Racoon.
Some years ago - Tom were the one to find him, munching happily on some meat in the kitchen at the Swaggers.
It took me quiet a while to convince him, not to kill Bandit. Tom keept claiming, it was a true pest and should be killed.
I somehow managed, with alot of pouting and begging to change his mind and today - Bandit is a grown racoon.
I teached him well. His very fond of things - Hell, the lil' one even brings me nightshade, doubloons, gems, jewels
- Whatever he can get his hands on from Customers pockets, when he charms his way into theire hearts.

Bandit, My little pride, he do take some of the suspicions away from me and I really have tried to stop!
But unfortually, that goes as 'grand' as my love-life! I somehow managed to get myself a valorite dagger
- With poison charges on. Oooops! Next time, I won't be tempted! I will.... I will just control myself!

And tonight - Gawd, it can't get any worse now. It really can't!
The Swaggers got robbed and the bloodi feckhead got away with a little over 900 doubloons!
Oh feck, I was scared! Thought the !!!!!!! were gonna stab me. The only thing that passed through my mind
where Sio, Heddy and the Veeties.

I couldn't do nothing but just handing him over the doubloons. It seems like, I will have to move the doubloons more
offen than I use to. As then with the lack of doubloons, mebbe they will leave the Swaggers alone.

Mmm, Someone once told me, that what I give out comes ten times back - Guess it's karma-payback time..
Blergh! Happy thoughts!

Right, gonna stop writeing now and then check on Sioned.
Then I'm gonna place a warrent and a bounty on him, as soon as Esca shows his bear-covered face at the Swaggers!

More later..

Rebecca · 2nd January 2008, 05:30 AM

Wednesday, 2. January.

A new year - and a new start.

New Years eve - I went to Cedarwood.
Mostly to tell Hedlyn, that the Company now have gathered the wares he had been asking for and to find a day, where we could get the wares to Yew.

We agreed on Thursday evening as we - Mostly likely, would be able to reach Cedarwood with the caravan unnoticed. I sure as feck, don't want to run into the Guards from Yew and I doubt Hedlyn want that either.

When we reach the shores of Yew - Hedlyn and the others will be waiting there with packhorses - And the Llama for good luck. Mmm, Llama's bring luck? If that's the case, then I better invest in one.

Anyways - I wished Hedlyn a happy new year and then I left Cedarwood.
I came back to the Swaggers and told Van, what I had arranged together with Hedlyn about the delivery.
As always, I knew Van would help out.
He might have a nasty reputation, but if your in need of a favour, Van is always willing to help you - Bless him.

I was in Trinsie last night chatting with Mordred.
Sioned came along and as always - She charms her way into people's hearts.
At first, she was shy and hiding in my skirt, but after a while.. Sio realised, that Mordred weren't as dangerous,
as he is tall so after a while Mordred were 'accepted' and then the questions began...
How many Dragons he had killed, How large they were, Did they fly and spit fire... Oh Gawd, I thought Mordred would pull his... well - beard and run of screaming - But to my surprise, he just chuckled and keept answering her questions to her own amusement.

I must remember to show her the Strongholt sometime. Tell her about the grand times, were the Kaldorians were in Sosaria and helped us getting the yewish arses out of northern Vesper.

Mmm, strange aint it? I didn't realize how much, I would miss them - Before they actually packed up and went back to theire own lands.

After a while Mordred had to leave us to go patrolling. I told him, that Sio and I wouldn't be in Trinsie when he returned, as I had some things to take care of at the Swaggers.
He said he would stop by the Swaggers, when he got off duty.

I took Sio to the Stable and her barrel-shaped little pony ( which Sio named Blossom, after she were done jumping up and down and asking me several of times, if it -really- was hers) was waiting.
Blossom is so small, that if I try sit on her, I can touch the ground with my feet on each side of her.

Blossom got a really calm temper and is used to children. So I think, I made a grand deal, when I bought her.

I asked Sioned, if we should take them out for a ride.. Her on Blossom and me on good ol' Jason.
As I suspected, she was very excited so we saddled up the horses and outside Trinsie, she had her lessons, in how to control the horse.

Bless her. All I have to say.
Watching her hold the reigns correct, and put her heels down and sitting so straight and proud.. And she is only 5 years old. I am positive, she will be an grand rider, when she grows up.

So after a while, we turned the horses around and began riding to Vesper. As always, Sioned was a big smile and I really enjoyed myself. Aint it funny, a little lass like her, can bring so much joy into life?

When we were close to the Swaggers, Blossom lowered her head down and began to nibble at the grass, I told Sioned to gently pull Blossom's reigns, as the she wasn't suppose to eat grass now. But I was too slow, Sio had already figured that out - And before I knew it... Sio and Blossom came trotted up the road..

The trip went well...
And as I thought, Sioned would be ready for bedtime, when we finally reached the Swaggers.
The ride had made her exhausted and I tugged her in at a room, at the Swaggers. I actually believe, she was sleeping before her head touched the pillow.

So I went downstairs and spoke with the two new Staff-members - Danielle and Ryland and then Van.
Shortly after, Rey and Gia arrived and then Mordred came.

Mordred had asked me in Trinsie, if we were planning another round of Twisted Dare and since we were a handful of people... I asked Gia to go fetch the books and I would pick up the dices.
The dices were rolled and I believe all of us had a grand laugh over some of the crazy dares, that was in.
My own Favorite, was when Van - After a pep-talk stormed over and placed several of wet kisses on Rey.
Not that the Lapdance from Gia was bad either.

A quiet, but still hillarious evening at the Swaggers...
More later, I got some work to do.. Need to speak with Van...

Rebecca · 10th January 2008, 10:05 AM

Thursday, 10 January.

Last Thursday - The Veeties and I loaded the Indomitable and sailed a large delivery of ammonition, kegs with explosives
and a few other things to Heddy and his Mates in Yew.

Mordred, had been hanging around the Swaggers and when he heard, where we was going - He asked if he could follow.
I guess, he was a bit uncomfy with his friends going into the zone of madness.

The plan was rather simple. While the Veeties were sailing the wares to Yew, Hedlyn and his friends should arrive at the
arranged-place with packies. Some were more relaxed on the sea than others.
Poor Mordred, almost Veetie green in the face...

We reached Yew at the arranged time - Actually were we in a few moments before the arranged time.
But rather a beeing early than beeing late - I hate beeing late!

After a while, I began to wonder where the feck the Celt were hidden. I send one of the Veeties around the Abbey to scout for
the Celt, while the rest of us would keep an eye on the ship.

We waited and waited - And with me beeing nervous I began to imagin the worst. That the Celts weren't comming or the Guards
had arrested every single one of them.

So much for nerves!
The Celts arrived not long after and we were split up in teams - In case the Guards would show up.
Rather split it up and then keep half of the deliveries, instead of loosing it all.

We agreed to meet at a building a little west of Cedarwood and the team I were on, didn't run into any problems.
When we reached the building, Hedlyn and his team were already there.

Then the Guardsmen arrived. Not good - Not good at all! Gawd, why do they always show up, when you nay need them?
I think, my heart skipped a beat, when they stepped closer and wanted to search the packies.

I glanced to the others a bit worried but before I managed to say anything - It was like someone opend the gates straight to hell.
Arrows and bolts were flying through the air and then the Veeties also attacked. I've nay think, I ran that fast before
- I truely hate diamond maces and those fecking Besiegers!!

It seemed like the tactic Hedlyn and the others had thought of worked. We managed to split them up a bit and take some of them down.
I thought, when I saw the red-cloak, that now we would be doomed. I so nay wanna get involved with a mounted Warrior! Irk!
One of the Celt's started to swing a bola and when he first was knocked of the horse, it weren't so hard to get him.

Unfortunally, a few of the Veeties got wounded. Not deadly wounded, but still wounded.
We took the wounded one inside the Tavern, where wounds were checked and then Hedlyn was buying a pint for all the Veeties and
the Celts.

I wished, I had the time to hang around longer, but I had a possible New Veetie waiting at the Swaggers.
Mmm, turned out he was a bit too tainted to be part of the Veeties..

So last night me and the Veeties were holding this Children's day at the Swaggers.

My poor lil' Sioned.

She had been so excited all day about the whole thing.
I tried to make her take a nap, while we were arranging and setting up for the evening, but as soon as I tugged her in
- and went downstairs, Sioned jumped out of bed. And in the end, I just gave up.

About 15 minutes after we started, Sioned were so tired, that even though I tried to nudge her, tickle her and all that
She fell asleep behind the bar. I carried her upstairs and tugged her in.

Feeling a bit sad, that she missed the whole thing, because I weren't more strict about her and the nap, but I really nay like to force her to do something,
she nay wanna do. Mmm, do that make me a bad Mum?

Well, I had - With a bit of convinceing, talked Van into dressing up as a Captain that needed some Crew for his Ship, he could take them out on a
treasure hunt. - A rather harmless one, as we had been filling a chest with candy, gems and a few coins.

I can't help to think about Crio - That lil' Lad is terrified of Pirates. I tried to convince the lil Guy, that Van - Well he was named Sweet-tooth were totally
harmless. Gawd, I wonder what Crio have been seen in the past - Cause no matter how much both Hedlyn and I tried to convince, he refused to follow Zefar
and the others on the treasure hunt.

The fishing pond, I made seemed to be popular for the youngest.

Little Ryan - That Darling, T'Lara and Stewan seemed to enjoy themself at the pond, as Ryan was a bit too small to go Treasure Hunting..

I told Hedlyn, he should let Crio fish for a bit - So he also tried something, now they had came all the way from Yew to visit the Swaggers..

We even had made a little field for some bagball, but I nay thing it got used, as there weren't so many kids around the Swaggers.
Mmm, could have been fun watching the kids play bagball. I wonder if they had played as crazy as grownup's do now and then.

While I was making the bagball-field - Van was getting kittens, pups and all sort of stuff for the lil' "Pat-Zoo"

Mmm, I thought I made a drawing of the Zoo..
We had placed it infront of the white lil' marble, so the kids didn't get spread out all over Vesper.

In my own oppinion - A diffrent, but enjoyable evening.
Sometimes, it's nice to do something diffrent, that the usual shite...

More laters, gotta get to work..

Rebecca · 6th February 2008, 05:13 AM

Wednesday 6, Febuary.

I must admit, it's been ages, since I scribbled in my diary and alot have happend over the last few weeks.

The Swaggers were really busy with the election for the new Baron and to alot of people's surprise or shock - Van won.
Mmm not bad for the Company. However, Van aint as corrupted as I could have hoped. Still it ain't that bad having him as the
Baron of Vesper - We still get away with a lot of things, we probably wouldn't have gotten away with, if the Baron of Vesper had
been Heath.

I can however - Still remember the shock I got that Sunday morning were people were getting ready to vote.
I had sleept at the Swaggers and went outside to try and find Escaflowne, to hear were he wanted us to set up the etablishment,
were the voting people could get a free pint after they had been inside the Townhall to give theire votes.

Outside the Swaggers I found alot of new banners and I thought it was either Amarante's or Bella's as she also wanted to try her
luck. But to my large surprise, they said something - That completly took me by surprise.

Seemed like a few Vesperians had hoped that I would run for Baroness of Vesper - Yeah right! Like that's ever gonna happen.
I like my life as it is. I got the Swaggers, my new family - The Veeties and ofcause all the other things.
Shocked I asked a pleasant, what the feck was going on and to my surprise he just shrugged and went back into looking out at the
sea - that fat !!!!!!!.

I looked around and ofcause - I should have guessed. Who else could come up with the idea of placeing banners around
apart from Phil Lynx.

We had a talk back and forth - And I told as it was. Not ten wild horses could drag me into politics. Hanse sometimes told me about the
decisions the Baron had to make and some of them I found rather hard.
And as a Baron or Baroness, you would have to listen to war-randy Nobles that wanna turn Vesper into a Loyalist City - No thanks!

It did however, take a while to convince Phil, that politics bore the living shite out of me. It's flattering though - That he believe,
could run a whole city. That's actually sweet - but still, not interrested!

The week after the election - We did on request, set up for a new round of 'Twisted Dare' and I realized something
- You nay have to be crazy to visit the Swaggers, but it sure as feck helps!

I had asked Gia to come up with some new 'dares' as the ones we have used the last times were getting dull - I should have
known! With Gia in charge of the dares - It's straight down the gutter! Thank Gawd, Sio was sleeping at Emma's..

Mmm, I believe the whole Twisted Dare made Amor busy with the New Baron and Maddy..

The dull news also came during that week.

We were once again robbed - Oh if I just could capture the !!!!!!! with his hand in the cookie-jar.

Oh Gawd - I would make the !!!!!!! suffer and to be honest - I would gladly take the years in jail for
tortureing his sorry arse! Mmm, maybe I should let the Brotherhood know and let them sort it out..
That's actually a good idea... It's unbelievble what some Folk's do for the right amount of doubloons..

But also some good ones!

Anna is back again - Gawd must know, where that woman have been.
She surprised me this time though - Cause she took down her own name and placed my name on the sign
at the Swaggers - I could have bursted into tears of happiness!

The whole thing of just living in a small room don't bother me - Not at all and two days after Anna had changed the sign
I passed the papers on the old house to Van - I personally believe he missed Vesper, while he was living in Buc's Den.
Like Hanse once said - Vespers grows on you. He was right.

Drew is still sleeping next to me and I got the urge to just close the diary and snuggle up to him and sleep longer..
However that aint possible, I got the Swaggers to run, so more later..

Rebecca · 3rd March 2008, 06:21 AM

Monday, 3. March.

I think - The Lord Protector is sitting in his Manor back home in Yew and laughs his arse off...
Reliefed that the Celts eased the attacks in Yew and apparently moved on to west Vesper - DOH!!!

I heard about it last week, when Frelt came into the Swaggers rather late in the evening.
He had heard something about the civvies in west Vesper wasn't satisfied with Van picking
Reywal as Mayor of west Vesper/Minoc and that the Civvies now apparently had grabbed theire weapons
and demanded a new Mayor.

Frelt wanted to bring a patrol there and check how 'bad' things were. But since it were so late,
he struggled to come up with some men. He came up with William and Van - Turned to me and Declan
and asked, if we wanted to come.
Having nothing better to do, we began walking towards west Vesper/Minoc - Gawd! What is it called these days?!

We reached west Vesper and found a handful of Civvies, which apparently wasn't satisfied. I spotted Newlyn
and got so confused over her beeing there, that I got distracted and didn't attack when the fight broke out.
I was thinking "What the feck?!... Who the hell, am I suppose to attack?!"

They wounded Van, Will and I think Frelt got wounded aswell.
Declan and I didn't get hurt - So we stayed briefly and talked a little with Newlyn and Co.

The whole thing goes way back.
I honestly believe, it goes back to when Twothumb was a Baron.
I learned, that the Civvies were angry, that they didn't get a saying in the politics and that Vesper just assumed,
that the Civvies of west Vesper/Minoc were alright with beeing under the control of Vesper.
And it sure as feck didn't help, that Van made Reywal Mayor there. The Civvies claimed that Reywal did shite
for the City and yada yada..

Declan and I returned to the Swaggers, were we found Van with a bolt in his back.
Getting rid of the bolt and tending the wound, I told Van what I found out..

Van however - were rather positive, that Hedlyn and his friends were behind it all.
Knowing that Newlyn were there, I have the same feeling - But I prefer to push it away.
I mean, Hedlyn wouldn't bring a civvie war so close to our daugther, right?

I suggested Van, to try and invite to a meeting with the Civvies, so he can hear what they are angry about
and then maybe they can find a solution. I think Van liked the idea and then we talked about a new election
for a Mayor in west Vesper/Minoc so that the Civvies also have a saying - Hell, they could even try run for Mayor..?
I guess, time will tell - What's gonna happen in the future with that part of the City..

So Van and Maddy got married last night.

Stewan from Trinsic were in charge of the food and I can't forget the wedding cake.
It were on the size of a child, with chocolate - Yum yum!
I were busy with arrangeing the tables, cause Maddy and Van wanted to hold the reception in Vesper.

Blue and Red... Naaaarh - It didn't work with the flowers!

We tried out a few colours, before we finally found the rigth one.
a dusty blue..

The Cermony itself left most of the Guest stunned and I must admit, Gwen did a hell of a job there.
I can't help, but to smile when thinking back at it. And I will recommend her to future weddings.
Hell - I think, I would ask her - If I ever change my mind about getting married.

After the cermony, I rushed back to Vesper to count up again, makeing sure, that no thief's had nicked a goblet or plate and I found
some guests, which apparently didn't see the Cermony - Theire loss though.

A moment later, the Bride and Groom arrived and the Guests went up to the tables with food and drinks and picked whatever they
desired.

When people were back on theire seats Van's best man Jake, held a little speach and we all raised our glasses for Maddy and Van..

and then the party kicked off...

After the party, I began to tidy up - Last thing I needed was a fine for leaving stuff behind the Swaggers.

Thaur, Hoagie, Jenny and a Covian - Which name slipped my mind stopped by and I sat down and had a little chat with them, before they left and I returned to the tidying.

When I were done, I were so exhausted, that I just went upstairs and collapsed on my bed.

It's unbelieveble what a good night sleep can do...
Oh well - I'll write more later, gotta check, what we need to stock up downstairs.

Rebecca · 21st April 2008, 06:43 PM

Monday 21. April.

It could seem like the time is changeing again around in Vesper.
Esca told me the other day, when he stopped by to get his Vesper Red, that the Militia had managed
to get theire hands on three new Recruits - And to be honest.. I can say it without lying, that I am happy on his behalf.

The Swaggers itself have been struggling with getting some Staff that actually sticks around and work
for theire wages - But thankfully that seemed to have changed aswell.

I spend some time putting up some notes on diffrent boards around in Sosaria..

...And now it seems like all that scribbling finally begins to pay off.
We recently got ourself some new veeties to help around the Swaggers - Like Casidy, Jordan, Morah
and then the newest barmaid Tia. She was hired the other day and I must say, I am surprised on how
much work she gets done without even beeing told to do it. That's actually grand.

There is another person - Aran. I have this strong feeling, that he would actually be able to continue
what Kiran started years ago. Would be nice to see, if he can get it up running - But before I tell him too
much, I wanna make sure - That he can be trusted.

Oh - I prolly made the fastest and most easy doubloons earlier this evening..

.. Of all the crazy shite, I have seen at the Swaggers over the years...
That cermony beats it all. But hey! 1000 doubloons - right down in my pocket!

I swear, I'll slap them when they come to get theire doubloons back - Or when they realize, that
I can't wed anyone legally.

So when Fab and Declan went upstairs to.. Well hold, cherish and feck.. Heath and I jumped one of his
blue portals and stepped through to Britain.
We saw Esca briefly, but as always - That man is in such a rush and he didn't stick around for long.

So there we were and when Heath turned and rummaged around in his bankbox.. I uhm slipped from the path.
I accidently borrowed Rands Darkmoon or whatever he was called grave-stone, a bottle of wine and
a Vesperian ale from Heath's bag.

Now I sit here in my bed and wonder - What the feck were I thinking?! A GRAVESTONE?!
I am really considering stopping smokeing that shade.. Cause I always seems to get some crappy shite.
It's rather obviously, that a gravestone aint the most easy thing to hide and ofcause Heath turned around
and looked at me trying to hide that bloodi thing!

And would the !!!!!!! buy it back? Nooooooooo!
I don't think, he at that time realized, that I had nicked the wine and ale from his bag.

Anyways - First he tried to take it back.. then I started to scream, like a stabbed pig.
That draw some attention in our direction and when that happend Heath decided to forget about the stone..

Then we returned to the Swaggers - After a bit of struggle with my runebooks and his portals!
I think he was trying to leave me there!

Anyways when we returned Heath wanted a bottle of Ler Vontano and I got myself a decent tip.
We didn't sit alone for long, before that cursed Orc arrived. Lately that one have been spotted around the
Swaggers lately and he always want the same thing - Doubloons.

To my surprise, Heath stood up rather calmly and told me to go inside and lock the doors. I did hesitate
a little - But instead of getting into an arguement with Heath - I just went inside and did as he said..Or well
almost - I was so curious, so I sneaked out via the basement and lured over the wall..

It seemed like Heath got another Talent - Apart from the arcane arts, cause the Orc seemed to be
both in pain and in panic.

When the Heath had released the Orc and it had legged it. Heath came in and I honestly felt like shite,
for what I did in Brittain.. So I apologized and.. returned all I nicked from him..

Mmm I don't think, I have done that before - But I guess, there gotta be a first time for everything.
I'll scribble more another time.
I arranged a game-eve at the Swaggers on wednesday and tomorrow I'll get a few things for wednesday.
I hate doing things in the last minute..

Rebecca · 2nd May 2008, 10:38 AM

Friday, 2. May.

This Wednesday - We were hosting this "Chase the Goose" game.
And some hours, before it kicked off - Van, Thana and myself were found running around in the nearby forests.. captureing the damn birds!
They are alot worse than Garret ever will be - Aggresive as feck, untill you managed to get them tamed.

Sa'hera was working on the sextants, while the we were chaseing birds.
After we had found the birds that we would need, we gathered them outside the Swaggers and I rushed off to get some books in Skara Brae for the cordinates.

Mmm, actually the first time - I used food for a game.
The turn-out wasn't as many, as I could have wished for. But still, I think the few that took part - Enjoyed themself and in the end, that's what matters.

I started yesterday out with finding out, that Sioned had pulled of a stunt that beats them all and even though I hated doing it, I punished her..

My little naive Angel.
It turned out that Edward, that wanker! - had told Sioned, that the pony would be freezeing outside in the shelther, we have for the horses. He'll get such a wack with the broom, next time I see him.

My Angel wanted the best for her pony so she had managed to get Blossom up the stairs and into the room.
I have no idea, if she rode Blossom up the stairs, but I surely don't hope so - With those slippy stairs, I mean she could have broke her neck, if Blossom had tripped.

Now I explained to her, that if it's cold outside, we have blankets to lay over the horses and ponies or we would bring them to the stables.
The punishment: She would pick up all the apples and the horse shite..
While I took the shards from the vase, that Blossom had knocked down from the table and then I would scrub the floors and clean the room.

And then she got herself a warning - Blossom is outside, either in the shelther, stable or at the grass and if I found Blossom inside, it would mean, that Sioned wasn't old enough to have a pony and then I would be forced to sell Blossom.

Now that warning made her understand that Blossom belongs outside and not long after - Sioned had found a little pig - That she named Bert and later on she came with a goat, named Billy...

We agreed that she could play with them outside and when I checked on her, she had made this lil' pen for them - And was giving them lettuce and fresh water.
I told her, that she prolly could earn some extra pocket-money by chargeing 3 doubloons for letting our Customers pat her 'new friends'.
We found a table and a stool for her, but My Angel didn't have the patience to sit and wait around for Customers..

We resieved visitors from Yew.
Seems like the Church of Yew wanted to give us a chance to convert to theire bloodi avatarism!
I had the feeling, as soon as I noticed the Templars, that it would break out into a fight.

Esca tried to tell them, that Vesper wasn't interrested in theire religion and that we have our own. Unfortunally, the yewish didn't accept that and shortly after the fight broke out.

Unfortunally our luck wasn't with us last night and I think, I can say without lying, that the yewish won that round. They wounded Esca, Lurtz and the others. Bastards! Next time they won't get off so easy and then it's theire turn to eat dirt!

When the Guards and the Templars from Yew turned on theire heels and was on theire way to head back to Yew - Theo came running out claiming that he was a real spell-caster... Sometimes that Man is so dumb, that it hurts on me!

Ofcause the Guards and the Templars dragged off with him - I had no idea, why I followed.. Cause there is not much I could have done, if they had started to chop wood and ready a stake, as the yewish are so famous for - But to my surprise Theo got off the hook easily - Harsh but easy.

The Templar with the red cloak nailed a note onto his stomach. Ouch! I get stomach pain, just by thinking of it!

Heath patched Theo up - and we helped eachother getting Theo back to the Swaggers, where an Ale helped a little.

I am a little concerned though. Cause the Templars told Theo to come to theire church on Sunday to get baptised. I don't like it - Not at all!
It's prolly a trap to lurk him straight to the stake.

Like the yewish wasn't enough - We had a visit from 3 Orcs later in the eve.

Lurtz and Heath got wounded and knocked off theire chairs, when the Orcs released theire mutts to attack, when we refused to pay the taxes they wanted.

It's the first time in ages, that I haven't spend the night at the Swaggers - But I was terrified of the Orcs comming back to get back at me, when Lurtz and Heath were in theire own beds.

Heath offered me to sleep at his place while he would sleep in the study.
I closed down the Swaggers for the evening and then I followed Heath to his Manor.
The whole "Becca, you stay in the bedroom and I'll be in the study" didn't last.
Heath got this huge bed and with both of us beeing adults - We agreed, that we both could sleep in the same bed and so we did.

I am gonna be careful the next few days..
And Sioned, she aint allowed to run outside without someone to look after her. It's too risky.

Thinking of that randy Orc - I doubt he'll be randy next time they stop by the Swaggers Inn.
His prolly gonna be more than worse than furious.

Afterall, I can only guess about how much it would hurt - To actually both get bitten and then punched in the groin from a Barmaid, who is acting in panic.

More laters..

Rebecca · 13th May 2008, 10:12 AM

Tuesday 13. May.

Some weeks ago Lurtz asked me for a little favor. He wanted to know, if the Swaggers would be able
to help him and the Militia out, with a 'Surprise Party' for Esca. Lurtz and the others believed, it was
time to show Escaflowne how much they appriciated his hard work for Vesper.

I didn't think much about the suggestion, cause Esca is also a good friend of mine and to be honest
I believe that if someone deserve a whole day dedicated to him or her - It surely would be Esca.

So everytime the Militia had a moment without theire Captain, they were found busy planning the
upcomming event - "Escaflowne Day". The day itself was planned out to be Monday, 5. May.

So the day came and everyone had everything ready. The Swaggers were extra stocked up with Vesperian Red
and ofcause everyone had bearhats.
People began gathering inside the Swaggers - Under the cover of a 'Militia Secret Training'
and then we began to wait for Esca..

So after Esca found out, who had been planning it all - He got himself a new shirt, in the Vesper's red
and ofcause a card, where everyone had signed. And then we moved on to the diffrent entertainments...

I must say - What surprised me the most was Elliot Heath demonstrating the rules for the 'Rum Stool' game.
Oh My Gawd! The Man that always order himself a pitcher with water actually downed a bottle of rum,
faster than someone can say 'Welcome to the Swaggers!"
I am shocked! Who would have thought Ellie had a secret passion for rum and beeing able to hide it so well!
Oh My Gawd! I was almost speakless!

After everyone was more tipsy - Specially Lurtz, who went under the table as the first one!
Heath opend the portal to some bagball field in good ol' Felucca.

However the bagball, wasn't exactly as I thought it would be.. I mean were were kicking to a bear-hat.
Esca and Van picked the teams and man did the team I was on, having our arse whooped big time
- Yeeeeeeees Sir!

Oh well, it was a grand laugh and that is what matters.

Regarding my lovelife... Ugh! I'm so skateing thin ice.
Even though I'm suppose to be Drew's lass... I spend more and more time with Elliot.

First it started out rather innocent, with a picnic and a empty fishbowl...

... And when Drew heard about it - His jealousy made him explode in rage!
I swear it, I have never seen Drew be that angry before. He was drinking heavily and ended up throwing
the empty bottles through the window to the office, while he was shouting and curseing Elliot to
the inner circle of the abyss..

I begged them both to stop - But it only worked on Elliot cause Drew was in rage.
I think, Elliot would have casted spells, if I didn't ask him not to..
Drew tried several of times to attack Elliot, but Ellie managed to hit Drew's axes out of his hand and then useing
the spell, that would freeze Drew's legs. In the end - Drew withdraw leaving me behind with Elliot.

Elliot wasn't much for leaving me alone with Drew, as he was worried sick that Drew would attack me
in his rage. I keept telling Ellie, that he shouldn't be so worried and that I wasn't scared of Drew.

Truth be told - I actually am afraid of Drew - Cause he aint exactly the person that got with a reputation of beeing
"Goodie-Two-Shoes".

I managed to calm Drew down and even though things were a little tense between Ellie and Drew.
They could sit in the same room without trying to kill eachother..

So the day after, Elliot came to me with another present..
This time, it was this cute statue of a mouse... I searched for the right place for it together with Ellie.

So after a while, we managed to find the perfect place for the Mouse..

So far, Ellie have showered me with presents, a golden necklace with a sapphire in and matching bracelet, earrings, a red dress
he had made for me.. Unlimitied tips - That I can pick myself from his bag and a key to his house..

Even though, I knew the key would be dangerous - I accepted it.
And just as I feared... The innocent flirts turned into a burning desire I wasn't strong enough control..

Drew and I went to the 'Couple & Pair Competition' in Stonekeep. The Competition were fun enough
but I also realized, that I don't know Drew that well...

I can't help to think about - if Drew and I can patch up the shards, if I ever dare to come clean with him..
I feel rather lousy with the way, I have been towards him.. Part of me wanna come clean and the other part don't.
If our relationship were meant to be - Would I really have done what I did with Elliot and apparently have a rather
eager Aran waiting on the sideline?

I was actually surprised, that Aran seems able to look right through me...Interresting... Interresting indeed.

A question that haunts my mind though
With Aran beeing able to read me like a open book, how is he gonna use it
- If he plans on useing it..?

Rebecca · 29th July 2008, 12:32 PM

Tuesday: 29. July.

I swear it! Some day, I'll loose myself!
My diary have been missing for months - And where do I find it? Oh, in the drawer where I keep Sio's winter clothes!

Reading the last page I wrote before my diary went missing - makes me realize, that loads of things have happend and I can still remember them, as clearly as if they happend yesterday. I must admit, some of them are more fond memories, than others..

One of the annoying memories that pops to mind is the whole episode with Chuck and Aran...Today, I still struggle to understand how that jest turned into an execution of a Veetie - Mmm mostly because it was the wrong Veetie they jailed and executed.

To be fair though, I personally believe that future prisoners in Vesper will be thankful for my actions.

Chuck - The local retard and gravedigger were used by the Militia, as a scare factor against the Criminals in and around Vesper. I think, most of the Criminals feared Chuck, because he had a thing for men.
I have actually seen full-grown men burst into tears as soon as Chucky dropped his leggins - When he bloodi was wearing them.

I can remember, I were so angry at Aran - because he was beeing able to read me like a open book. I swear it, that man could see right through me and it made me feel so exposed and uncomfy. I hate that feeling!

Aran had injuried his leg and he were more or less chained to the bed because of it. So with me beeing bored - annoyed and in a foul mood, Chucky beeing dumb and Aran beeing a easy target - I send after Chuck - Makeing him believe that Aran was waiting for him in the bed..

I will -never- forget those screams from Aran, when Chuck - drooling his brains out entered the room.
While those two - Well, while Chucky was having fun and Aran was living through his worst nightmare, I went downstairs with Elliot for a drink.

Chuck left and I went up to mock Aran...Oh I was so cruel, untill he looked through the lies and shite.

I remember beeing shocked, when Aran told me how it was. Darn, he was so right - He knew me so well. Without really knowing me.

For a reason, I can't remember Chucky returned and wanted to visit Aran again. Still beeing in a shock over Aran knowing me that well, made me tell Chucky to feck off! The darn Retard wouldn't listen and then a vase got broken and I grabbed one of the pillows and held it over Chuck's face, while he were knocked out. Shortly after, Chuck were dead..

Aran and I were working on our stories when Elliot, Van and Thaur came upstairs.
I went into panic and when they asked, what happend - I keept saying, that i found Chuck like that.

I started to cry on command and to my largest fear - They dragged off with Aran while I were released.. I were so scared, that Aran would tell what I had done..But no Aran didn't tell them anything.

But later on Aran did the most wretched thing ever. He assaulted Heath.
Cut off his toe and ate it! Scarred his face and gawd know what else!

They captured Aran again and this time, there wasn't any mercy for him.
I begged Elliot - Even Esca to show mercy on Aran. But no - Heath wanted him dead and in a way so did I...mostly because - with Aran out of the picture no one would know what I did to Chuck.

The day for the execution came and the Guards picked up Aran from the cells. and followed him out to the gallows.
Aran asked me, if his eternal resting place could be at the Swaggers..

I keept that promise and now I know, that my secret died with Aran..

It's so hard scribbling down all the things that have happend, while my diary was tugged away with the winter clothes.

But sitting here and thinking of the past makes me think of Drew - My Clyde as we used to jest with.
Thinking about it, I still blame Van.. If he just had minded his own business - I wonder how the things would have looked today..
Van did - atleast in my oppinion force me to come clean with Drew..

Oh... my.... Gawd.

I still get chills down my spine thinking of it!
I have seen Drew angry - Oh I have. But that was like a kiss from a Nun compairing to what I were faceing after I told him the truth.

I got such a beating, that I were bruised for a week and I doubt the scar, I have from his axe ever will dissapear. In a way, I guess I were lucky - cause I seriously thought, he were gonna kill me.

As sick as it may sound - I still think about Drew...I even miss him so much that I can get stomach acke.. I wonder where he is these days.. I haven't seen him since that day..

Before the elections in Vesper, Elliot told me about his feelings for me..
It's madness - It really, really is.
I tried to explain to Elliot, that as a bedbuddy - Sure, but the relationships with me always end up fatal.
For once, I were completly honest..

That didn't stop him...

...I have been engaged for a while now..

The question is - for how much longer..?

Rebecca · 31st July 2008, 12:27 PM

Thursday - 31 July.

The Olympics are reaching it's end - And tonight it's the last event before the closeing cermony tomorrow. During all the games, I had high hopes for all the other Cities, but the way it looks now - Specially with the scores from yesterday, it seems like the next Olympics will be hosted by the Yewish.

Darn it!! Darn it all!

I get nervous thinking about the Closeing Cermony tomorrow.
Mostly because - With the Olympics beeing over, Elliot won't be so busy and he will be around the Swaggers more and I've been a baaaaaaaaad girl... again....

I have decided to come clean - Well mebbe not really clean.
More like telling him, that I can't stay in the relationship or get married to him.. Gawd, If I told him the truth - I really fear, he would make a living torch out of me!

Business have started to pick up again and it's great - It really is.
Now I just hope and cross my fingers, that we'll be able to keep it going when the Olympics is over.
I might not be a wine-enthuasiast - But I love the thought of the doubloons!

Kiran had an outburst the other day and for a change it wasn't on me - This time, he took it out on Adelle.
He struggles so much with the skellies in his closet - But it aint an excuse to treat the people, who care for him like shite. Sometimes I wanna grab him, smack him several of times, while shouting at him "Get the feck over it! Yer can't bloodi change the past!"

I promised myself, that I would never -ever- again listen to anything about Kiran and his past, but that eve, where he was having a go on Adelle, I think - I found out why Kiran is the way he is.

I must admit I thought my life had been hard - Growing up without a Mother, but no. That is water compaired to what Kiran have faced in his youth.
Kiran used a tactic, that his own Father - Atleast from what I heard, used on him. What a sick !!!!!!!, Kirans Father was! Who in theire right state of mind, would cut theire own kid inside the cheeks, to make them smile?!

That whole thing just creeped me out and I revailed my hideing place and Kiran decided to let Adelle go.. Thank Gawd! He went down in the basement, truth be told - I didn't wanna go down there, in case he had an outburst again, but I did.

When I came down, Kiran gave me an bolt and asked me to kill him - Because he couldn't take it anymore.
Oh... My... Gawd..! He wanted to throw the towel in the ring.
I swear it - if I wasn't angry before, then I sure as feck were after he asked me end his life.

I believe the glare he resieved could have killed a Titan and then I exploded. Kiran got such a punch, that my hand was sore for more than an hour after. I shouted at him, that I wouldn't tolerate that shite - Specially not from him. Not now - When we have business to handle. I shouted at him for a job going wrong and demanded that he did something about it! I told him off for so many things and apparently that worked..

Sitting here and thinking about it makes me smile - because like a snap of the fingers - Kiran was back to normal. He picked up his notebook and started to scribble the things down on what we needed done and so on.

I personally believe, my shouting did Kiran well. As weird as it may sound I think Kiran is a happy man, when he got some work to do.

While I were working at the bar last night this pale - And in my oppinion - some what grumpy Chap came to the Swaggers. He wanted to rent a room for the evening and ordered a bottle of strong liquer and a roasted pig.

Before going down to the kitchen, I asked Kiran to sort the Chap out with a room and a bottle of liquer, while I check the kitchen.
Unfortunally, we were out of roasted pigs - Oh my Gawd! I actually think - I am reliefed we were out of pigs!

Anyways - Back to subject. I returned to the Chap and told him the 'bad news'. No pigs and then I decided to ask him, if I maybe could tempt him with some roasted chicken instead.
The Chap thought for a little bit and then decided to take the offer on the chicken. He would return to his room and I promised, that I would bring it up there.

Oh.. My... Gawd! I wished, I had told him to wait!!!

... Having a really bad feeling about this, I went downstairs...

ARGH!... I must scribble that again - ARGH!!!!
After him adjusting his mongbat, I just went total into panic! Thank GAWD, I am the owner, then I can get others to tidy and clean up after.. such events!

Kiran were the only one around and there for - his job to tidy up! Irk!

And after that episode - I made a decision...

And that's Final!!!!!

17th December 2007, 05:36 PM	#21
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Monday 17. December Been some days, since I last wrote a bit in my diary. I feel a little better, than last time I wrote in my diary. Guess it's when your sad - Your true friends appear and bless Marcus, his been there for me all the time. Trying to tell me, that I aint a bad person - Considering what I did towards Hedlyn. But for some reason, I still miss Hedlyn or maybe, it's just the thought of beeing alone, that scares the living shite out of me! After we broke up, I rarely see him anymore - and I assume he moved on. I hope the girl that gets him, will be better to him, than I ever was. I decided, that I wanted a day of so I could spend a little time with Sioned. Before she woke up, I had placed the Christmas stockings at the kamin in the house and left a candy cane and a emeral- bracelet in it for her. I even placed a little piece of coal in my own. So my Angel woke up. And she was a biiiig smile - As soon as she spotted her stocking, she could barely wait and I watched her when she digged into her stocking and found the candy cane and her new bracelet. Bless her. It don't take much to satisfy that lil' lass. I think, she loved the bracelet, because it was in her favorite colour of metal. She looked at my stocking and asked if I had checked mine. I shoke my head and digged my hand down and pulled out the coal. If Hedlyn had seen her face, he would have bursted out laughing! Sioned opend her eyes wide open and outbursted "Oi! Becca - Yer been bad! Santa only gives coals for the naugthy ones!" Oh, Sioned my little Angel - If you just knew how bad, I've been - Hurting your Daddy's feelings so much, that he wanted his freedom. I still struggle with myself - In a way, I wanna confess and tell her, why her Daddy aint so much arround Vesper.. But again, I'm also scared, than I'll end up pushing her way, since she loves her Daddy so much. I know, I would - If someone had treated my Dad, as I treated hers. I have alot of small presents for her tugged away on a safe place, where she won't find them. I wonder, what she will say for her next little present. I placed it earlier this eve. Sioned came and asked me earlier, if she could go and play with a lass named Emma. If someone ever can say no to Sio - I will be shocked, that little Angel so wraps me around her piggy finger - And truth be told, I don't mind it. It puts a smile on my lips in these annoying and lonely times. So when Sioned was playing with Emma - I went out trying to gather something special for her. It took me quiet a while, but now I have it and I plan it should be some of her presents for Christmas. Gawd, I need a hobby - Who, beeing sane will slay that many Soles..and then collect 10.000 doubloons and not to mention all the gems. I wanna bet - 100 doubloons, that Tom will be impressed next time he see Bandit - My tame Racoon. Some years ago - Tom were the one to find him, munching happily on some meat in the kitchen at the Swaggers. It took me quiet a while to convince him, not to kill Bandit. Tom keept claiming, it was a true pest and should be killed. I somehow managed, with alot of pouting and begging to change his mind and today - Bandit is a grown racoon. I teached him well. His very fond of things - Hell, the lil' one even brings me nightshade, doubloons, gems, jewels - Whatever he can get his hands on from Customers pockets, when he charms his way into theire hearts. Bandit, My little pride, he do take some of the suspicions away from me and I really have tried to stop! But unfortually, that goes as 'grand' as my love-life! I somehow managed to get myself a valorite dagger - With poison charges on. Oooops! Next time, I won't be tempted! I will.... I will just control myself! And tonight - Gawd, it can't get any worse now. It really can't! The Swaggers got robbed and the bloodi feckhead got away with a little over 900 doubloons! Oh feck, I was scared! Thought the !!!!!!! were gonna stab me. The only thing that passed through my mind where Sio, Heddy and the Veeties. I couldn't do nothing but just handing him over the doubloons. It seems like, I will have to move the doubloons more offen than I use to. As then with the lack of doubloons, mebbe they will leave the Swaggers alone. Mmm, Someone once told me, that what I give out comes ten times back - Guess it's karma-payback time.. Blergh! Happy thoughts! Right, gonna stop writeing now and then check on Sioned. Then I'm gonna place a warrent and a bounty on him, as soon as Esca shows his bear-covered face at the Swaggers! More later.. __________________

2nd January 2008, 05:30 AM	#22
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Wednesday, 2. January. A new year - and a new start. New Years eve - I went to Cedarwood. Mostly to tell Hedlyn, that the Company now have gathered the wares he had been asking for and to find a day, where we could get the wares to Yew. We agreed on Thursday evening as we - Mostly likely, would be able to reach Cedarwood with the caravan unnoticed. I sure as feck, don't want to run into the Guards from Yew and I doubt Hedlyn want that either. When we reach the shores of Yew - Hedlyn and the others will be waiting there with packhorses - And the Llama for good luck. Mmm, Llama's bring luck? If that's the case, then I better invest in one. Anyways - I wished Hedlyn a happy new year and then I left Cedarwood. I came back to the Swaggers and told Van, what I had arranged together with Hedlyn about the delivery. As always, I knew Van would help out. He might have a nasty reputation, but if your in need of a favour, Van is always willing to help you - Bless him. I was in Trinsie last night chatting with Mordred. Sioned came along and as always - She charms her way into people's hearts. At first, she was shy and hiding in my skirt, but after a while.. Sio realised, that Mordred weren't as dangerous, as he is tall so after a while Mordred were 'accepted' and then the questions began... How many Dragons he had killed, How large they were, Did they fly and spit fire... Oh Gawd, I thought Mordred would pull his... well - beard and run of screaming - But to my surprise, he just chuckled and keept answering her questions to her own amusement. I must remember to show her the Strongholt sometime. Tell her about the grand times, were the Kaldorians were in Sosaria and helped us getting the yewish arses out of northern Vesper. Mmm, strange aint it? I didn't realize how much, I would miss them - Before they actually packed up and went back to theire own lands. After a while Mordred had to leave us to go patrolling. I told him, that Sio and I wouldn't be in Trinsie when he returned, as I had some things to take care of at the Swaggers. He said he would stop by the Swaggers, when he got off duty. I took Sio to the Stable and her barrel-shaped little pony ( which Sio named Blossom, after she were done jumping up and down and asking me several of times, if it -really- was hers) was waiting. Blossom is so small, that if I try sit on her, I can touch the ground with my feet on each side of her. Blossom got a really calm temper and is used to children. So I think, I made a grand deal, when I bought her. I asked Sioned, if we should take them out for a ride.. Her on Blossom and me on good ol' Jason. As I suspected, she was very excited so we saddled up the horses and outside Trinsie, she had her lessons, in how to control the horse. Bless her. All I have to say. Watching her hold the reigns correct, and put her heels down and sitting so straight and proud.. And she is only 5 years old. I am positive, she will be an grand rider, when she grows up. So after a while, we turned the horses around and began riding to Vesper. As always, Sioned was a big smile and I really enjoyed myself. Aint it funny, a little lass like her, can bring so much joy into life? When we were close to the Swaggers, Blossom lowered her head down and began to nibble at the grass, I told Sioned to gently pull Blossom's reigns, as the she wasn't suppose to eat grass now. But I was too slow, Sio had already figured that out - And before I knew it... Sio and Blossom came trotted up the road.. The trip went well... And as I thought, Sioned would be ready for bedtime, when we finally reached the Swaggers. The ride had made her exhausted and I tugged her in at a room, at the Swaggers. I actually believe, she was sleeping before her head touched the pillow. So I went downstairs and spoke with the two new Staff-members - Danielle and Ryland and then Van. Shortly after, Rey and Gia arrived and then Mordred came. Mordred had asked me in Trinsie, if we were planning another round of Twisted Dare and since we were a handful of people... I asked Gia to go fetch the books and I would pick up the dices. The dices were rolled and I believe all of us had a grand laugh over some of the crazy dares, that was in. My own Favorite, was when Van - After a pep-talk stormed over and placed several of wet kisses on Rey. Not that the Lapdance from Gia was bad either. A quiet, but still hillarious evening at the Swaggers... More later, I got some work to do.. Need to speak with Van... __________________

10th January 2008, 10:05 AM	#23
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Thursday, 10 January. Last Thursday - The Veeties and I loaded the Indomitable and sailed a large delivery of ammonition, kegs with explosives and a few other things to Heddy and his Mates in Yew. Mordred, had been hanging around the Swaggers and when he heard, where we was going - He asked if he could follow. I guess, he was a bit uncomfy with his friends going into the zone of madness. The plan was rather simple. While the Veeties were sailing the wares to Yew, Hedlyn and his friends should arrive at the arranged-place with packies. Some were more relaxed on the sea than others. Poor Mordred, almost Veetie green in the face... We reached Yew at the arranged time - Actually were we in a few moments before the arranged time. But rather a beeing early than beeing late - I hate beeing late! After a while, I began to wonder where the feck the Celt were hidden. I send one of the Veeties around the Abbey to scout for the Celt, while the rest of us would keep an eye on the ship. We waited and waited - And with me beeing nervous I began to imagin the worst. That the Celts weren't comming or the Guards had arrested every single one of them. So much for nerves! The Celts arrived not long after and we were split up in teams - In case the Guards would show up. Rather split it up and then keep half of the deliveries, instead of loosing it all. We agreed to meet at a building a little west of Cedarwood and the team I were on, didn't run into any problems. When we reached the building, Hedlyn and his team were already there. Then the Guardsmen arrived. Not good - Not good at all! Gawd, why do they always show up, when you nay need them? I think, my heart skipped a beat, when they stepped closer and wanted to search the packies. I glanced to the others a bit worried but before I managed to say anything - It was like someone opend the gates straight to hell. Arrows and bolts were flying through the air and then the Veeties also attacked. I've nay think, I ran that fast before - I truely hate diamond maces and those fecking Besiegers!! It seemed like the tactic Hedlyn and the others had thought of worked. We managed to split them up a bit and take some of them down. I thought, when I saw the red-cloak, that now we would be doomed. I so nay wanna get involved with a mounted Warrior! Irk! One of the Celt's started to swing a bola and when he first was knocked of the horse, it weren't so hard to get him. Unfortunally, a few of the Veeties got wounded. Not deadly wounded, but still wounded. We took the wounded one inside the Tavern, where wounds were checked and then Hedlyn was buying a pint for all the Veeties and the Celts. I wished, I had the time to hang around longer, but I had a possible New Veetie waiting at the Swaggers. Mmm, turned out he was a bit too tainted to be part of the Veeties.. So last night me and the Veeties were holding this Children's day at the Swaggers. My poor lil' Sioned. She had been so excited all day about the whole thing. I tried to make her take a nap, while we were arranging and setting up for the evening, but as soon as I tugged her in - and went downstairs, Sioned jumped out of bed. And in the end, I just gave up. About 15 minutes after we started, Sioned were so tired, that even though I tried to nudge her, tickle her and all that She fell asleep behind the bar. I carried her upstairs and tugged her in. Feeling a bit sad, that she missed the whole thing, because I weren't more strict about her and the nap, but I really nay like to force her to do something, she nay wanna do. Mmm, do that make me a bad Mum? Well, I had - With a bit of convinceing, talked Van into dressing up as a Captain that needed some Crew for his Ship, he could take them out on a treasure hunt. - A rather harmless one, as we had been filling a chest with candy, gems and a few coins. I can't help to think about Crio - That lil' Lad is terrified of Pirates. I tried to convince the lil Guy, that Van - Well he was named Sweet-tooth were totally harmless. Gawd, I wonder what Crio have been seen in the past - Cause no matter how much both Hedlyn and I tried to convince, he refused to follow Zefar and the others on the treasure hunt. The fishing pond, I made seemed to be popular for the youngest. Little Ryan - That Darling, T'Lara and Stewan seemed to enjoy themself at the pond, as Ryan was a bit too small to go Treasure Hunting.. I told Hedlyn, he should let Crio fish for a bit - So he also tried something, now they had came all the way from Yew to visit the Swaggers.. We even had made a little field for some bagball, but I nay thing it got used, as there weren't so many kids around the Swaggers. Mmm, could have been fun watching the kids play bagball. I wonder if they had played as crazy as grownup's do now and then. While I was making the bagball-field - Van was getting kittens, pups and all sort of stuff for the lil' "Pat-Zoo" Mmm, I thought I made a drawing of the Zoo.. We had placed it infront of the white lil' marble, so the kids didn't get spread out all over Vesper. In my own oppinion - A diffrent, but enjoyable evening. Sometimes, it's nice to do something diffrent, that the usual shite... More laters, gotta get to work.. __________________

6th February 2008, 05:13 AM	#24
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Wednesday 6, Febuary. I must admit, it's been ages, since I scribbled in my diary and alot have happend over the last few weeks. The Swaggers were really busy with the election for the new Baron and to alot of people's surprise or shock - Van won. Mmm not bad for the Company. However, Van aint as corrupted as I could have hoped. Still it ain't that bad having him as the Baron of Vesper - We still get away with a lot of things, we probably wouldn't have gotten away with, if the Baron of Vesper had been Heath. I can however - Still remember the shock I got that Sunday morning were people were getting ready to vote. I had sleept at the Swaggers and went outside to try and find Escaflowne, to hear were he wanted us to set up the etablishment, were the voting people could get a free pint after they had been inside the Townhall to give theire votes. Outside the Swaggers I found alot of new banners and I thought it was either Amarante's or Bella's as she also wanted to try her luck. But to my large surprise, they said something - That completly took me by surprise. Seemed like a few Vesperians had hoped that I would run for Baroness of Vesper - Yeah right! Like that's ever gonna happen. I like my life as it is. I got the Swaggers, my new family - The Veeties and ofcause all the other things. Shocked I asked a pleasant, what the feck was going on and to my surprise he just shrugged and went back into looking out at the sea - that fat !!!!!!!. I looked around and ofcause - I should have guessed. Who else could come up with the idea of placeing banners around apart from Phil Lynx. We had a talk back and forth - And I told as it was. Not ten wild horses could drag me into politics. Hanse sometimes told me about the decisions the Baron had to make and some of them I found rather hard. And as a Baron or Baroness, you would have to listen to war-randy Nobles that wanna turn Vesper into a Loyalist City - No thanks! It did however, take a while to convince Phil, that politics bore the living shite out of me. It's flattering though - That he believe, could run a whole city. That's actually sweet - but still, not interrested! The week after the election - We did on request, set up for a new round of 'Twisted Dare' and I realized something - You nay have to be crazy to visit the Swaggers, but it sure as feck helps! I had asked Gia to come up with some new 'dares' as the ones we have used the last times were getting dull - I should have known! With Gia in charge of the dares - It's straight down the gutter! Thank Gawd, Sio was sleeping at Emma's.. Mmm, I believe the whole Twisted Dare made Amor busy with the New Baron and Maddy.. The dull news also came during that week. We were once again robbed - Oh if I just could capture the !!!!!!! with his hand in the cookie-jar. Oh Gawd - I would make the !!!!!!! suffer and to be honest - I would gladly take the years in jail for tortureing his sorry arse! Mmm, maybe I should let the Brotherhood know and let them sort it out.. That's actually a good idea... It's unbelievble what some Folk's do for the right amount of doubloons.. But also some good ones! Anna is back again - Gawd must know, where that woman have been. She surprised me this time though - Cause she took down her own name and placed my name on the sign at the Swaggers - I could have bursted into tears of happiness! The whole thing of just living in a small room don't bother me - Not at all and two days after Anna had changed the sign I passed the papers on the old house to Van - I personally believe he missed Vesper, while he was living in Buc's Den. Like Hanse once said - Vespers grows on you. He was right. Drew is still sleeping next to me and I got the urge to just close the diary and snuggle up to him and sleep longer.. However that aint possible, I got the Swaggers to run, so more later.. __________________

3rd March 2008, 06:21 AM	#25
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Monday, 3. March. I think - The Lord Protector is sitting in his Manor back home in Yew and laughs his arse off... Reliefed that the Celts eased the attacks in Yew and apparently moved on to west Vesper - DOH!!! I heard about it last week, when Frelt came into the Swaggers rather late in the evening. He had heard something about the civvies in west Vesper wasn't satisfied with Van picking Reywal as Mayor of west Vesper/Minoc and that the Civvies now apparently had grabbed theire weapons and demanded a new Mayor. Frelt wanted to bring a patrol there and check how 'bad' things were. But since it were so late, he struggled to come up with some men. He came up with William and Van - Turned to me and Declan and asked, if we wanted to come. Having nothing better to do, we began walking towards west Vesper/Minoc - Gawd! What is it called these days?! We reached west Vesper and found a handful of Civvies, which apparently wasn't satisfied. I spotted Newlyn and got so confused over her beeing there, that I got distracted and didn't attack when the fight broke out. I was thinking "What the feck?!... Who the hell, am I suppose to attack?!" They wounded Van, Will and I think Frelt got wounded aswell. Declan and I didn't get hurt - So we stayed briefly and talked a little with Newlyn and Co. The whole thing goes way back. I honestly believe, it goes back to when Twothumb was a Baron. I learned, that the Civvies were angry, that they didn't get a saying in the politics and that Vesper just assumed, that the Civvies of west Vesper/Minoc were alright with beeing under the control of Vesper. And it sure as feck didn't help, that Van made Reywal Mayor there. The Civvies claimed that Reywal did shite for the City and yada yada.. Declan and I returned to the Swaggers, were we found Van with a bolt in his back. Getting rid of the bolt and tending the wound, I told Van what I found out.. Van however - were rather positive, that Hedlyn and his friends were behind it all. Knowing that Newlyn were there, I have the same feeling - But I prefer to push it away. I mean, Hedlyn wouldn't bring a civvie war so close to our daugther, right? I suggested Van, to try and invite to a meeting with the Civvies, so he can hear what they are angry about and then maybe they can find a solution. I think Van liked the idea and then we talked about a new election for a Mayor in west Vesper/Minoc so that the Civvies also have a saying - Hell, they could even try run for Mayor..? I guess, time will tell - What's gonna happen in the future with that part of the City.. So Van and Maddy got married last night. Stewan from Trinsic were in charge of the food and I can't forget the wedding cake. It were on the size of a child, with chocolate - Yum yum! I were busy with arrangeing the tables, cause Maddy and Van wanted to hold the reception in Vesper. Blue and Red... Naaaarh - It didn't work with the flowers! We tried out a few colours, before we finally found the rigth one. a dusty blue.. The Cermony itself left most of the Guest stunned and I must admit, Gwen did a hell of a job there. I can't help, but to smile when thinking back at it. And I will recommend her to future weddings. Hell - I think, I would ask her - If I ever change my mind about getting married. After the cermony, I rushed back to Vesper to count up again, makeing sure, that no thief's had nicked a goblet or plate and I found some guests, which apparently didn't see the Cermony - Theire loss though. A moment later, the Bride and Groom arrived and the Guests went up to the tables with food and drinks and picked whatever they desired. When people were back on theire seats Van's best man Jake, held a little speach and we all raised our glasses for Maddy and Van.. and then the party kicked off... After the party, I began to tidy up - Last thing I needed was a fine for leaving stuff behind the Swaggers. Thaur, Hoagie, Jenny and a Covian - Which name slipped my mind stopped by and I sat down and had a little chat with them, before they left and I returned to the tidying. When I were done, I were so exhausted, that I just went upstairs and collapsed on my bed. It's unbelieveble what a good night sleep can do... Oh well - I'll write more later, gotta check, what we need to stock up downstairs. __________________

21st April 2008, 06:43 PM	#26
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Monday 21. April. It could seem like the time is changeing again around in Vesper. Esca told me the other day, when he stopped by to get his Vesper Red, that the Militia had managed to get theire hands on three new Recruits - And to be honest.. I can say it without lying, that I am happy on his behalf. The Swaggers itself have been struggling with getting some Staff that actually sticks around and work for theire wages - But thankfully that seemed to have changed aswell. I spend some time putting up some notes on diffrent boards around in Sosaria.. ...And now it seems like all that scribbling finally begins to pay off. We recently got ourself some new veeties to help around the Swaggers - Like Casidy, Jordan, Morah and then the newest barmaid Tia. She was hired the other day and I must say, I am surprised on how much work she gets done without even beeing told to do it. That's actually grand. There is another person - Aran. I have this strong feeling, that he would actually be able to continue what Kiran started years ago. Would be nice to see, if he can get it up running - But before I tell him too much, I wanna make sure - That he can be trusted. Oh - I prolly made the fastest and most easy doubloons earlier this evening.. .. Of all the crazy shite, I have seen at the Swaggers over the years... That cermony beats it all. But hey! 1000 doubloons - right down in my pocket! I swear, I'll slap them when they come to get theire doubloons back - Or when they realize, that I can't wed anyone legally. So when Fab and Declan went upstairs to.. Well hold, cherish and feck.. Heath and I jumped one of his blue portals and stepped through to Britain. We saw Esca briefly, but as always - That man is in such a rush and he didn't stick around for long. So there we were and when Heath turned and rummaged around in his bankbox.. I uhm slipped from the path. I accidently borrowed Rands Darkmoon or whatever he was called grave-stone, a bottle of wine and a Vesperian ale from Heath's bag. Now I sit here in my bed and wonder - What the feck were I thinking?! A GRAVESTONE?! I am really considering stopping smokeing that shade.. Cause I always seems to get some crappy shite. It's rather obviously, that a gravestone aint the most easy thing to hide and ofcause Heath turned around and looked at me trying to hide that bloodi thing! And would the !!!!!!! buy it back? Nooooooooo! I don't think, he at that time realized, that I had nicked the wine and ale from his bag. Anyways - First he tried to take it back.. then I started to scream, like a stabbed pig. That draw some attention in our direction and when that happend Heath decided to forget about the stone.. Then we returned to the Swaggers - After a bit of struggle with my runebooks and his portals! I think he was trying to leave me there! Anyways when we returned Heath wanted a bottle of Ler Vontano and I got myself a decent tip. We didn't sit alone for long, before that cursed Orc arrived. Lately that one have been spotted around the Swaggers lately and he always want the same thing - Doubloons. To my surprise, Heath stood up rather calmly and told me to go inside and lock the doors. I did hesitate a little - But instead of getting into an arguement with Heath - I just went inside and did as he said..Or well almost - I was so curious, so I sneaked out via the basement and lured over the wall.. It seemed like Heath got another Talent - Apart from the arcane arts, cause the Orc seemed to be both in pain and in panic. When the Heath had released the Orc and it had legged it. Heath came in and I honestly felt like shite, for what I did in Brittain.. So I apologized and.. returned all I nicked from him.. Mmm I don't think, I have done that before - But I guess, there gotta be a first time for everything. I'll scribble more another time. I arranged a game-eve at the Swaggers on wednesday and tomorrow I'll get a few things for wednesday. I hate doing things in the last minute.. __________________

2nd May 2008, 10:38 AM	#27
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Friday, 2. May. This Wednesday - We were hosting this "Chase the Goose" game. And some hours, before it kicked off - Van, Thana and myself were found running around in the nearby forests.. captureing the damn birds! They are alot worse than Garret ever will be - Aggresive as feck, untill you managed to get them tamed. Sa'hera was working on the sextants, while the we were chaseing birds. After we had found the birds that we would need, we gathered them outside the Swaggers and I rushed off to get some books in Skara Brae for the cordinates. Mmm, actually the first time - I used food for a game. The turn-out wasn't as many, as I could have wished for. But still, I think the few that took part - Enjoyed themself and in the end, that's what matters. I started yesterday out with finding out, that Sioned had pulled of a stunt that beats them all and even though I hated doing it, I punished her.. My little naive Angel. It turned out that Edward, that wanker! - had told Sioned, that the pony would be freezeing outside in the shelther, we have for the horses. He'll get such a wack with the broom, next time I see him. My Angel wanted the best for her pony so she had managed to get Blossom up the stairs and into the room. I have no idea, if she rode Blossom up the stairs, but I surely don't hope so - With those slippy stairs, I mean she could have broke her neck, if Blossom had tripped. Now I explained to her, that if it's cold outside, we have blankets to lay over the horses and ponies or we would bring them to the stables. The punishment: She would pick up all the apples and the horse shite.. While I took the shards from the vase, that Blossom had knocked down from the table and then I would scrub the floors and clean the room. And then she got herself a warning - Blossom is outside, either in the shelther, stable or at the grass and if I found Blossom inside, it would mean, that Sioned wasn't old enough to have a pony and then I would be forced to sell Blossom. Now that warning made her understand that Blossom belongs outside and not long after - Sioned had found a little pig - That she named Bert and later on she came with a goat, named Billy... We agreed that she could play with them outside and when I checked on her, she had made this lil' pen for them - And was giving them lettuce and fresh water. I told her, that she prolly could earn some extra pocket-money by chargeing 3 doubloons for letting our Customers pat her 'new friends'. We found a table and a stool for her, but My Angel didn't have the patience to sit and wait around for Customers.. We resieved visitors from Yew. Seems like the Church of Yew wanted to give us a chance to convert to theire bloodi avatarism! I had the feeling, as soon as I noticed the Templars, that it would break out into a fight. Esca tried to tell them, that Vesper wasn't interrested in theire religion and that we have our own. Unfortunally, the yewish didn't accept that and shortly after the fight broke out. Unfortunally our luck wasn't with us last night and I think, I can say without lying, that the yewish won that round. They wounded Esca, Lurtz and the others. Bastards! Next time they won't get off so easy and then it's theire turn to eat dirt! When the Guards and the Templars from Yew turned on theire heels and was on theire way to head back to Yew - Theo came running out claiming that he was a real spell-caster... Sometimes that Man is so dumb, that it hurts on me! Ofcause the Guards and the Templars dragged off with him - I had no idea, why I followed.. Cause there is not much I could have done, if they had started to chop wood and ready a stake, as the yewish are so famous for - But to my surprise Theo got off the hook easily - Harsh but easy. The Templar with the red cloak nailed a note onto his stomach. Ouch! I get stomach pain, just by thinking of it! Heath patched Theo up - and we helped eachother getting Theo back to the Swaggers, where an Ale helped a little. I am a little concerned though. Cause the Templars told Theo to come to theire church on Sunday to get baptised. I don't like it - Not at all! It's prolly a trap to lurk him straight to the stake. Like the yewish wasn't enough - We had a visit from 3 Orcs later in the eve. Lurtz and Heath got wounded and knocked off theire chairs, when the Orcs released theire mutts to attack, when we refused to pay the taxes they wanted. It's the first time in ages, that I haven't spend the night at the Swaggers - But I was terrified of the Orcs comming back to get back at me, when Lurtz and Heath were in theire own beds. Heath offered me to sleep at his place while he would sleep in the study. I closed down the Swaggers for the evening and then I followed Heath to his Manor. The whole "Becca, you stay in the bedroom and I'll be in the study" didn't last. Heath got this huge bed and with both of us beeing adults - We agreed, that we both could sleep in the same bed and so we did. I am gonna be careful the next few days.. And Sioned, she aint allowed to run outside without someone to look after her. It's too risky. Thinking of that randy Orc - I doubt he'll be randy next time they stop by the Swaggers Inn. His prolly gonna be more than worse than furious. Afterall, I can only guess about how much it would hurt - To actually both get bitten and then punched in the groin from a Barmaid, who is acting in panic. More laters.. __________________

13th May 2008, 10:12 AM	#28
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Tuesday 13. May. Some weeks ago Lurtz asked me for a little favor. He wanted to know, if the Swaggers would be able to help him and the Militia out, with a 'Surprise Party' for Esca. Lurtz and the others believed, it was time to show Escaflowne how much they appriciated his hard work for Vesper. I didn't think much about the suggestion, cause Esca is also a good friend of mine and to be honest I believe that if someone deserve a whole day dedicated to him or her - It surely would be Esca. So everytime the Militia had a moment without theire Captain, they were found busy planning the upcomming event - "Escaflowne Day". The day itself was planned out to be Monday, 5. May. So the day came and everyone had everything ready. The Swaggers were extra stocked up with Vesperian Red and ofcause everyone had bearhats. People began gathering inside the Swaggers - Under the cover of a 'Militia Secret Training' and then we began to wait for Esca.. So after Esca found out, who had been planning it all - He got himself a new shirt, in the Vesper's red and ofcause a card, where everyone had signed. And then we moved on to the diffrent entertainments... I must say - What surprised me the most was Elliot Heath demonstrating the rules for the 'Rum Stool' game. Oh My Gawd! The Man that always order himself a pitcher with water actually downed a bottle of rum, faster than someone can say 'Welcome to the Swaggers!" I am shocked! Who would have thought Ellie had a secret passion for rum and beeing able to hide it so well! Oh My Gawd! I was almost speakless! After everyone was more tipsy - Specially Lurtz, who went under the table as the first one! Heath opend the portal to some bagball field in good ol' Felucca. However the bagball, wasn't exactly as I thought it would be.. I mean were were kicking to a bear-hat. Esca and Van picked the teams and man did the team I was on, having our arse whooped big time - Yeeeeeeees Sir! Oh well, it was a grand laugh and that is what matters. Regarding my lovelife... Ugh! I'm so skateing thin ice. Even though I'm suppose to be Drew's lass... I spend more and more time with Elliot. First it started out rather innocent, with a picnic and a empty fishbowl... ... And when Drew heard about it - His jealousy made him explode in rage! I swear it, I have never seen Drew be that angry before. He was drinking heavily and ended up throwing the empty bottles through the window to the office, while he was shouting and curseing Elliot to the inner circle of the abyss.. I begged them both to stop - But it only worked on Elliot cause Drew was in rage. I think, Elliot would have casted spells, if I didn't ask him not to.. Drew tried several of times to attack Elliot, but Ellie managed to hit Drew's axes out of his hand and then useing the spell, that would freeze Drew's legs. In the end - Drew withdraw leaving me behind with Elliot. Elliot wasn't much for leaving me alone with Drew, as he was worried sick that Drew would attack me in his rage. I keept telling Ellie, that he shouldn't be so worried and that I wasn't scared of Drew. Truth be told - I actually am afraid of Drew - Cause he aint exactly the person that got with a reputation of beeing "Goodie-Two-Shoes". I managed to calm Drew down and even though things were a little tense between Ellie and Drew. They could sit in the same room without trying to kill eachother.. So the day after, Elliot came to me with another present.. This time, it was this cute statue of a mouse... I searched for the right place for it together with Ellie. So after a while, we managed to find the perfect place for the Mouse.. So far, Ellie have showered me with presents, a golden necklace with a sapphire in and matching bracelet, earrings, a red dress he had made for me.. Unlimitied tips - That I can pick myself from his bag and a key to his house.. Even though, I knew the key would be dangerous - I accepted it. And just as I feared... The innocent flirts turned into a burning desire I wasn't strong enough control.. Drew and I went to the 'Couple & Pair Competition' in Stonekeep. The Competition were fun enough but I also realized, that I don't know Drew that well... I can't help to think about - if Drew and I can patch up the shards, if I ever dare to come clean with him.. I feel rather lousy with the way, I have been towards him.. Part of me wanna come clean and the other part don't. If our relationship were meant to be - Would I really have done what I did with Elliot and apparently have a rather eager Aran waiting on the sideline? I was actually surprised, that Aran seems able to look right through me...Interresting... Interresting indeed. A question that haunts my mind though With Aran beeing able to read me like a open book, how is he gonna use it - If he plans on useing it..? __________________

29th July 2008, 12:32 PM	#29
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Tuesday: 29. July. I swear it! Some day, I'll loose myself! My diary have been missing for months - And where do I find it? Oh, in the drawer where I keep Sio's winter clothes! Reading the last page I wrote before my diary went missing - makes me realize, that loads of things have happend and I can still remember them, as clearly as if they happend yesterday. I must admit, some of them are more fond memories, than others.. One of the annoying memories that pops to mind is the whole episode with Chuck and Aran...Today, I still struggle to understand how that jest turned into an execution of a Veetie - Mmm mostly because it was the wrong Veetie they jailed and executed. To be fair though, I personally believe that future prisoners in Vesper will be thankful for my actions. Chuck - The local retard and gravedigger were used by the Militia, as a scare factor against the Criminals in and around Vesper. I think, most of the Criminals feared Chuck, because he had a thing for men. I have actually seen full-grown men burst into tears as soon as Chucky dropped his leggins - When he bloodi was wearing them. I can remember, I were so angry at Aran - because he was beeing able to read me like a open book. I swear it, that man could see right through me and it made me feel so exposed and uncomfy. I hate that feeling! Aran had injuried his leg and he were more or less chained to the bed because of it. So with me beeing bored - annoyed and in a foul mood, Chucky beeing dumb and Aran beeing a easy target - I send after Chuck - Makeing him believe that Aran was waiting for him in the bed.. I will -never- forget those screams from Aran, when Chuck - drooling his brains out entered the room. While those two - Well, while Chucky was having fun and Aran was living through his worst nightmare, I went downstairs with Elliot for a drink. Chuck left and I went up to mock Aran...Oh I was so cruel, untill he looked through the lies and shite. I remember beeing shocked, when Aran told me how it was. Darn, he was so right - He knew me so well. Without really knowing me. For a reason, I can't remember Chucky returned and wanted to visit Aran again. Still beeing in a shock over Aran knowing me that well, made me tell Chucky to feck off! The darn Retard wouldn't listen and then a vase got broken and I grabbed one of the pillows and held it over Chuck's face, while he were knocked out. Shortly after, Chuck were dead.. Aran and I were working on our stories when Elliot, Van and Thaur came upstairs. I went into panic and when they asked, what happend - I keept saying, that i found Chuck like that. I started to cry on command and to my largest fear - They dragged off with Aran while I were released.. I were so scared, that Aran would tell what I had done..But no Aran didn't tell them anything. But later on Aran did the most wretched thing ever. He assaulted Heath. Cut off his toe and ate it! Scarred his face and gawd know what else! They captured Aran again and this time, there wasn't any mercy for him. I begged Elliot - Even Esca to show mercy on Aran. But no - Heath wanted him dead and in a way so did I...mostly because - with Aran out of the picture no one would know what I did to Chuck. The day for the execution came and the Guards picked up Aran from the cells. and followed him out to the gallows. Aran asked me, if his eternal resting place could be at the Swaggers.. I keept that promise and now I know, that my secret died with Aran.. It's so hard scribbling down all the things that have happend, while my diary was tugged away with the winter clothes. But sitting here and thinking of the past makes me think of Drew - My Clyde as we used to jest with. Thinking about it, I still blame Van.. If he just had minded his own business - I wonder how the things would have looked today.. Van did - atleast in my oppinion force me to come clean with Drew.. Oh... my.... Gawd. I still get chills down my spine thinking of it! I have seen Drew angry - Oh I have. But that was like a kiss from a Nun compairing to what I were faceing after I told him the truth. I got such a beating, that I were bruised for a week and I doubt the scar, I have from his axe ever will dissapear. In a way, I guess I were lucky - cause I seriously thought, he were gonna kill me. As sick as it may sound - I still think about Drew...I even miss him so much that I can get stomach acke.. I wonder where he is these days.. I haven't seen him since that day.. Before the elections in Vesper, Elliot told me about his feelings for me.. It's madness - It really, really is. I tried to explain to Elliot, that as a bedbuddy - Sure, but the relationships with me always end up fatal. For once, I were completly honest.. That didn't stop him... ...I have been engaged for a while now.. The question is - for how much longer..? __________________

31st July 2008, 12:27 PM	#30
Rebecca Join Date: Oct 2006 Shard/Server: Europa Posts: 696 My Mood: Thanks: 3 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post	Thursday - 31 July. The Olympics are reaching it's end - And tonight it's the last event before the closeing cermony tomorrow. During all the games, I had high hopes for all the other Cities, but the way it looks now - Specially with the scores from yesterday, it seems like the next Olympics will be hosted by the Yewish. Darn it!! Darn it all! I get nervous thinking about the Closeing Cermony tomorrow. Mostly because - With the Olympics beeing over, Elliot won't be so busy and he will be around the Swaggers more and I've been a baaaaaaaaad girl... again.... I have decided to come clean - Well mebbe not really clean. More like telling him, that I can't stay in the relationship or get married to him.. Gawd, If I told him the truth - I really fear, he would make a living torch out of me! Business have started to pick up again and it's great - It really is. Now I just hope and cross my fingers, that we'll be able to keep it going when the Olympics is over. I might not be a wine-enthuasiast - But I love the thought of the doubloons! Kiran had an outburst the other day and for a change it wasn't on me - This time, he took it out on Adelle. He struggles so much with the skellies in his closet - But it aint an excuse to treat the people, who care for him like shite. Sometimes I wanna grab him, smack him several of times, while shouting at him "Get the feck over it! Yer can't bloodi change the past!" I promised myself, that I would never -ever- again listen to anything about Kiran and his past, but that eve, where he was having a go on Adelle, I think - I found out why Kiran is the way he is. I must admit I thought my life had been hard - Growing up without a Mother, but no. That is water compaired to what Kiran have faced in his youth. Kiran used a tactic, that his own Father - Atleast from what I heard, used on him. What a sick !!!!!!!, Kirans Father was! Who in theire right state of mind, would cut theire own kid inside the cheeks, to make them smile?! That whole thing just creeped me out and I revailed my hideing place and Kiran decided to let Adelle go.. Thank Gawd! He went down in the basement, truth be told - I didn't wanna go down there, in case he had an outburst again, but I did. When I came down, Kiran gave me an bolt and asked me to kill him - Because he couldn't take it anymore. Oh... My... Gawd..! He wanted to throw the towel in the ring. I swear it - if I wasn't angry before, then I sure as feck were after he asked me end his life. I believe the glare he resieved could have killed a Titan and then I exploded. Kiran got such a punch, that my hand was sore for more than an hour after. I shouted at him, that I wouldn't tolerate that shite - Specially not from him. Not now - When we have business to handle. I shouted at him for a job going wrong and demanded that he did something about it! I told him off for so many things and apparently that worked.. Sitting here and thinking about it makes me smile - because like a snap of the fingers - Kiran was back to normal. He picked up his notebook and started to scribble the things down on what we needed done and so on. I personally believe, my shouting did Kiran well. As weird as it may sound I think Kiran is a happy man, when he got some work to do. While I were working at the bar last night this pale - And in my oppinion - some what grumpy Chap came to the Swaggers. He wanted to rent a room for the evening and ordered a bottle of strong liquer and a roasted pig. Before going down to the kitchen, I asked Kiran to sort the Chap out with a room and a bottle of liquer, while I check the kitchen. Unfortunally, we were out of roasted pigs - Oh my Gawd! I actually think - I am reliefed we were out of pigs! Anyways - Back to subject. I returned to the Chap and told him the 'bad news'. No pigs and then I decided to ask him, if I maybe could tempt him with some roasted chicken instead. The Chap thought for a little bit and then decided to take the offer on the chicken. He would return to his room and I promised, that I would bring it up there. Oh.. My... Gawd! I wished, I had told him to wait!!! ... Having a really bad feeling about this, I went downstairs... ARGH!... I must scribble that again - ARGH!!!! After him adjusting his mongbat, I just went total into panic! Thank GAWD, I am the owner, then I can get others to tidy and clean up after.. such events! Kiran were the only one around and there for - his job to tidy up! Irk! And after that episode - I made a decision... And that's Final!!!!! __________________