(This is the Story of Ebony Rani.

Ebony is the only child of Casandra Rani of Moonglow. Her mother has worked most of her life as a barmaid in the local tavern. Ebony was the resulting offspring of a very brief affair, a drunken one night stand of her mother a pointed ear'd stranger who after much ale she found strangely attractive and spent the night with.

Because her mother was in her late teens at the time of Ebony's arrival into this world and because of her mothers lack of knowledge of children and of elves she grew up in the local tavern, the odd stranger being her babysitter until the age of four when she was pretty much left to fend for herself.

She learnt a fair bit about the general tavern trade as well as a deal about gambling, drinking and how to protect herself from flying glasses although she did not recieve any schooling of such.

When she turned 12 her mother, her mothers latest boyfriend and herself moved to trinsic when her mother continued in the barmaid trade and where Ebony learnt a great deal from the local archery range and the constant stream of passing traders and travellers.

All her life she has been treated as worthless, as nothing and mostly ignored by her mother and other staff at the establishment her mother worked out, she does a few chores, just enough to earn her board and keep and the odd bread crust.

She has lost all reason for living and finds the dull menal tasks she performs day in and day out meaningless and barely worth continuing, the world seems that it could quite happily carry on as if she never existed)

Date of entry 2nd July 07

Today has been an amazing day even now i am tempted to pinch myself to make sure i am dreaming.

This morning started like any other, and many other days that have passed before, i woke up before the sun started to rise and headed downstairs to the bar, to clean up the mess left from the early hours of this morning by the drunkards who had been here.

After making the place look somewhat presentable i headed outside to sweep the path as the sun rose it really was quite beautiful. I tried not to day dream and to continue with my work but i was caught day dreaming by the cook and taken aside and beaten badly with the cane, i must learn not to daydream so much it gets me into so much trouble. After spending several minutes getting myself together and cleaning my wounds i headed back outside to the path and continued sweeping, very fast as not to get in trouble again and also to finish it before people started walking the town, i am not supposed to let people see me unless it is nessessary.

After this i went into the kitchen and continued some other chores for about an hour. I then went outside for a wander to eat my bread and try to learn some of the words that a travelling gypsy had taught me a few days before, i was told not to speak them in public as it would cause great punishment upon me, i still struggle with the pronoun cation "Anh Me Sah Ko"

As i was outside eating i saw two people enter the bar, by this time it was the afternoon and sometimes the bar gets busy at this time. One of the people spoke to me i regarded her and headed into the bar to continue with my chores. I took the bucket from aside the barrel and a scrubbing brush, and started to clean the filthy floor of the bar, it smelt of split stale beer and tobacco. As i finished one end of the room i started to move past the two visitors to the bar, as i did so, i slipped on a small wet patch and dropped the contents of the bucket all over the floor. I apologised to the visitors and started to try and clean the split water from the floor, using any means possible, using my clothing to try and absorb it.

I thought i had cleared the water, and i headed over to the cook, i must admit i was expecting my second beating of the day for spilling the water he scalded me but did not punish me, i think he was kind this once because there were visitors in the bar.

I refilled my bucket from a nearby barrel and continued to clean the floor. As i did so one of the visitors a lady called me over, i hurried to her call to be told that i had missed some water from my earlier spillage, i cleaned it up using my apron and apologised prefusally.

The lady left the bar, instructing the gentleman that she would be back shortly. The gentleman introduced himself to me and told me to sit at the table, i advised him that i must continue with my work, and he insisted i join him, not wishing to anger him i sat opposite him.

He asked me if i wanted a drink, i advised him i was only allowed to drink rain water, and he placed a bottle on the table and advised me to drink some, he told me it was champagne. At this point i asked if he was celebrating, he advised me he wasn't but that i was. At this point the lady returned bearing a package of clothes.

She handed them to me, and asked me to put them on, i was surprised at this as no one has ever given me such a gift before. I stalled and she insisted. I headed over to a dark corner and changed into the clothes, they felt so soft against my skin, not like the damp filth covered rags i had worn for many years, but still i folded my rags up and laid them in the corner and reported back to the lady. At this point she advised me that i was to call her Mistress.

She told me i must burn the rags i had worn previously i took them up from the corner of the room and placed them into the fire, they did not seem to want to burn to begin with as they had absorbed aloft of the water from the water spillage a short time ago.

The gentleman advised me i was to go bath and gave me some coins for the cost of the water and told me to tell the cook that i quit my job. At this point i was somewhat hesitant as this is the only life i had known and i did not wish to be homeless and jobless. Mistress advised me to meet them at Trinsic West Gate once i had done this and they left the bar.

I carefully approached the cook and advised him i wanted to leave, i half expected him to approach me as the customers left and give me the beating for spilling the water but he didn't. I gave him the coins for the water but decided as he was not very happy at the prospect of me leaving that it would best if i just ran out after i had told him!

I ran and i ran all the way to the West gate a thousand thoughts and feelings running through my head, i had not told my mother i had left, i did not know if this was some form of joke that the customers were having with me, what was going to happen to me and where i was to sleep tonight.

I walked past the gate and saw Mistress and Sir and walked up to them, Mistress was sitting on a fallen log. Sir advised me to sit down and told me that things were going to be very different from now on. Mistress told me she was looking for a assistant to travel with her, to help clean her home and to do her bidding, i advised i could do that for her and would be very happy with that job, she advised me it was not a job she was offering but a new life. I was very happy at this prospect as all my life i have been unloved and unwanted.

They opened a magical blue portal and advised i step through, i did their bidding and arrived at a large house, We entered the property. which was very pretty and nicely decorated many items that filled me with awe. We wandered up some stairs and through some passageway and arrived at the roof of the house, i thought for a moment as we approached the roof that this would be where i slept as before at the bar i often slept on the roof as i was dirty and smelt rather bad.

As we reached the roof however i saw that it had many precious items as the rest of the house and also contained a large tub, Mistress advised me that i should wash as i was unclean and soiling the new clothes i had been given.

At this point Mistress and sir left me to bathe, i took off my clothes and folded them and stepped into the warm water, i have never had a bath before, only used a bucket of dirty water to try and remove some of the dirt. The feeling was amazing as was the warmth. I scrubbed and cleaned myself and when i was happy i stepped out of the bath dried myself and redressed.

I wandered through the house, somewhat scared that i would get lost in my new surroundings but finally arrived to a room where the Mistress and Sir were sitting at a table, they beaconed me to join them which i did. We sat and talked for some time about the varying roles i was to partake in, and they also advised that they had another servant a male who did chores for them to.

We stood up and we walked to a room which i was advised was my bedroom i stood in awe as i saw a large double bed with beautiful coverings and again many beautiful items adorned the room, to begin with i was unsure if i was being mocked but knew from my experience with them over the day that this was no joke. We spoke briefly once again regarding the other servant and i was advised that i was not to enter the room via the tile on the top floor, This i respect as we must all have some areas of secretary and that they had already given me so much. I would not want to lose the respect of Mistress or sir or lose the new life that i have been given.

After this i asked if i could be excused to have a nap as so far the day has taken its tole on me, and my back ached from this mornings beating.

EVENING.

I awoke to find the property empty and decided to go for a walk, i bumped into a man who after looking at my clean clothes and looks assumed i was someone of importance, he asked me where i was going, i advised him that i was looking to go learn some archery and where i could obtain a bow and arrows, he advised me he was a fletcher and gave me the items i required and showed me to a place i could learn the skill better.

The place he took me to was a cemetery in the town of Moonglow, here he left me. I knew a little about archery as i had spent a small amount of my free time when i had some at the local archery range, i knew the theory behind it all but had never actually fired a bow. This i found somewhat surprisingly hard, i fired at the monsters within the graveyard and hit a few, although i missed allot more than i hit!

There was some creatures in there which are called Spectres they kept injuring me by firing spells at me, i was not strong enough at this time to be able to do any damage to them.

I was on the verge of giving up, i sat on the grass and looked up, to my surprise there was Sir standing above me, i was somewhat surprised by his appearance. He asked me if i wanted help i assumed he must have seen me struggle and was very ashamed. I nodded to him and he guided me in using the bow and also giving me advise on how to hit monsters and which i should hit first. To begin with i struggled as i had before but after some time of us both standing there, myself firing the bow i found myself becoming somewhat better with it, and killed; if that is the right word the un-dead creatures with much more ease, sometimes killing them in as little as three shots.

I was very proud of this accomplishment. I advised Sir that i was learning this skill in order to be able to protect my Mistress should the need arise and it is also a worthwhile thing to be able to protect yourself in times of need.

Sir magically tele ported into the graveyard which i found somewhat amazing. He went into the graveyard and alot of the monsters followed him and gathered around the fencing so i could shoot at them and practise more. When he teleported out of the graveyard there was not a scratch on him, i was very much amazed he seems almost godlike.

After a while he advised me he had to go slay some demons i was surprised at this but he said he would explain this to me at a later date and that now was not the time. I feel very curious about this, to be honest i feel curious about several things, i wonder why they chose me? , surely there are much more qualified people to be attendants. I thought briefly about what could be in the forbidden room but reminded myself that allot was at stake if i risked entering it, and that i would never do so.

After a small amount of time i returned to the house to write my journal...

3rd July 07

My head is hurting there are several things going on which i cant explain, secrets and they are confusing me greatly.

The day started well, i awoke, and cleaned the flooring throughout the house and made the beds, i also watered the plants. Once my chores were done i headed down the the cemetry in Moonglow i am spending much time here practising my archery, i must admit i am enjoying it greatly.

Later in the day once i had spent several hours practising with my bow, i met up with Mistress as she advised me she wanted to go to a new Tavern which has opened. It was quite a long walk through the dark woods of Trinsic and i got lost. I must admit i wasnt as afraid as i used to be, as i had my bow and arrows on me and knew i could protect myself against the local wildlife if need be.

Eventually we reached the Tavern, i was introduced to several other members of the family and there was a gentleman in a long green robe, he ordered drinks at the bar and came to sit with us. I swear he ordered blood and the barmaid advised they did not serve this kind of drink here.

There was alot of conversation to be honest i must admit i didnt follow it as i was pondering what i had heard from the man in green. After a while a barmaid approached us and advised us that there was to be entertainment upstairs. We all went upstairs, there was a woman stripping off her clothes to the sound of a lute it was most disgusting, i left as did Mistress. Mistress then went off with another member of the family.

I approached Vad, a family member about what i had heard reguarding the man in green he said blood was supposed to keep people young and there was alot i would learn but it was not his place to tell me. This confused me further and i wandered back downstairs.

I bumped into Fayte again i advised her what i had heard, she advised me that i must have heard incorrectly, i am seriously beginning to doubt my sanity.

I saw one more family member and asked him, again he said it was not his place to tell me and that i should be patient and all would be revealed.

Confused i wandered back to the Moonglow cemetry to ponder my thoughts and practise my new skills further.

I went for a wander after spending many hours again with my bow and found myself just outside of Trinsic, i had convinced myself i must have been hearing things earlier and had pushed these thoughts to the back of my mind.

Outside i bumped into Vad and Fayte who looked a little worse for wear as they had been attacked at a bridge just outside of Trinsic who had apparently claimed ownership of said bridge.

Vad wandered off leaving me with Fayte, She told me to avoid the bridge, i was playing with one of my arrows at this time and slipped cutting my finger, it hurt quite a bit and bled alittle more than i thought a cut of this size would, the blood oozed down my finger, i looked at Fayte and could tell she loooked a little anxious.

I checked my backpack and found i had no bandages to stem the bleeding, Fayte advised the best thing to do was to suck my finger, i stuck it into my mouth but quickly removed it as i did not like the taste of my own blood. Fayte took my finger and sucked on it, the bleeding stopped but she seem to suck quite hard. I swear she bit it slightly, she seems to have very sharp teeth.

She advised me she knew alot about healing and then herself she had to go.

I dont know if i am losing my mind or whether i am turning innocent things and corrupting them, but things dont seem quite right, i am enjoying life with my Mistress and my new 'famiy' i dont want to risk losing them, but do i weigh this against the cost of losing my own sanity.

3rd July 07 Written Late PM

Finally everything has fallen into place, and alot of things are not making sense.

Demos took me to a second floor room that had a beautiful view of Trinsic. The room smelt of death and it looked like it hadnt been cleaned in about a decade; several skeletons totally free of flesh lay on the floor.

In the middle of the room was a strange pillar and four chairs. Demos asked me to sit, which i did. He knew i had alot of questions on my mind from how i had been acting earlier in the day. He asked me to ask him them. I advised this was pointless as i assumed that he would answer in riddles or deny anything as the others whom i had asked previously had done.

But he told me plainly that he would answer any questions i had.

I asked him about the drink of blood that the gentleman had asked the barkeep for whilst we were in the tavern earlier that day. I knew it was not common practise for people to order blood and to be honest this totally freaked me out.

He nodded, without answering and i continued asking why Fayte had sucked my wounded finger and bitten it slightly just an hour or two before.

He asked me how i would feel to live forever, i assumed he was dodging my questions, and i told him my answer, he also asked me what i would do if i lived forever. I told him that i would travel and try to see everything, basically to gather information and knowledge and to make use of the gift of eternity. I thought this question was rather odd.

He told me lots of things after this, i may not have the order correct of which he spoke as even now i am finding this somewhat hard to believe. He basically told me that some members of the family could live forever and that this was done through the drinking of blood, which is very much like the human eating of food, it is done for survival. He also advised me that this also gave other gifts, such as for some, being able to read others thoughts, and also gave god-like strength. It seemed like quite an interesting situation and to be honest all the pieces of the puzzle that had happened total and yesterday seemed to fit with what he was describing.

I told him that i assumed that both himself and Mistress had read my mind and seen how pathetic my life had been previously and that this is why they had offered me a new type of life and a job. He nodded to this, another thing which now makes perfect sense to me.

He explained to me how he came to be this way, how he fell in love and how the woman who bit him saw it as a game. That he became curious of her ways and she basically taught him all she knew.

He advised that the members of the family who drank blood like himself could survive from humans, elves etc and did not have to kill in order to feed. One could survive on feeding from animals but that this was considered very low.

All up until this point sunk in quite easily and i must admit it read almost fiction had i not experienced the past few days, i was not scared of him, i understood that he did what he needed in order to survive, it had not occured to me that he ate humans and of course i was human, and could in some ways in a different situation be considered his meal.

The thought clicked in my mind, and i became quite scared and ran to a corner in the room, i looked from the high windows that were very small, too small for me to squeeze through and it was obvious even if i could fit that i would not survive the fall.


He came to me and said that he was offering me a choice, a choice to be one of the family, a choice that when he was embraced he did not have.

He explained the process to me how i would have to prove my loyalty to him and that after that i would taste his blood and that things would be different from that point forward, i would not be as one of them yet as there is still a further stage which he explained involved him drinking my blood.

I would be lying if i said i wasnt scared, i did not answer his question but told him it was obvious that if i did not choose to become one of his kind that i would not be allowed to leave this room alive as i knew too much and would be a danger to him, he nodded.

The thought came to me at this time about the four skeletons scattered around the room, i wondered if they were people who he offered this choice but who had tried to flee or if they said no to his offer, or if they were his food but did not survive the feeding process.

He told me he did not wish the option of me saying no as he did not wish to cause me harm, and that if i said no he would snap my neck, i assume causing no pain and instant death.

I took a few deep breathes trying to calm myself and to think logically about the offer if you could call it that, that i had been given.

I must admit the offer of eternal life and to aquire great knowledge was very appealing, but the thought of having to survive on draining some of the blood of others was not. I only had one answer to give him, i stood up and told him that i wanted to take up his offer, he was very happy that i had chosen this option.

We talked a short time longer about other things and then he told me he had to retire to rest, at this point i asked him about his kind sleeping, he advised me that they dont but close there eyes and generally rest.

Then he retired to his home.

I stood in the room for some time thinking about the conversation and the offer that i had just accepted.

Journal Entry
5th July 07

I am not sure, of my current location, i am in a dark rather creepy looking room, somewhat like a dungeon. The room smells of death and decay, my thoughts are jumbled but i will try and sort them into some sort of order by trying to recall what i can from the day.

It started well, i woke up early feeling rather refreshed, i had some bread for breakfast and started on my chores, after cleaning and sweeping and watering the plants, i petted the parrot; speaking to him for some time, but he would not speak back to me.

Feeling somewhat frustrated that my labour of trying to get the bird to talk was fruitless i went for a walk. I rumaged through my backpack and laid my hands on my bow and descided that if i wanted to continue keeping my skill up and improving my archery i would need to practice further. I headed to the dungeon that i had visited yesterday, known as Shame. I learnt yesterday that whilst fighting the earth elementals i need to almost dance about keeping out of the reach of their heavy hands as not to get hurt. I stayed in this dark cave for many hours, and earned about ten thousand coins. I decided the best place for this money was the bank and headed to Britain bank to open an account.

Britian bank was quite busy there seemed to be too many customers and not enough bankers but after some time i was seen and i was taken to a room by a banker and put my money into a chest which was put into a large secure room. The banker handed me the key which i put into my backpack for safe keeping.

I met up with Demos at Trinsic gate and we went for a walk briefly around the town. I had a few questions for him reguarding his kind, so we went to the same room we visited a few days ago and i asked him what was on my mind.

Whilst in this room i told him of all the feelings that had rushed through me in the last few days, i had felt many a feeling towards him, and yesterday whilst visiting the Goblin in Cove he had met with a woman and sent me away. I saw him when i stood in the garden holding this womans hand, i felt great heat within my breast and an anger unlike i had never felt before. I told him of my feelings whilst sitting in this room filled with Bones and dust. He explained to me he was in love and this stung me so.

I pushed all these feelings that were running through me, to the back of my mind whilst we talked of other things.

Demos pondered for a moment a look upon his face that confused me, he then took his nail and slit his wrist open, i watched his blood drip to the floor as he called me to his side, he then placed his wrist near my mouth, as if tempting me to drink, he had explained earlier that this was the first step in becoming as him and others of the family.

I tried my best not to drink especially as he told me not to, he then pulled his hand away, running his unharmed hand across it, i watched in amazement as it healed almost instantly.

He said that i had passed the test, i looked at him somewhat confused, he advised that he could not at this time reward me but by the end of the week he would, but not now as it would anger my Mistress.

He looked tired, and advised me he had to go rest, leaving me alone briefly in the room. I quickly headed out, back to the house.

I stayed at Mistress's house for a short time thinking about what had happened and then descided it best to go to Trinsic for a walk to clear my head.

I stood at Trinsic Gate for a few moments watching the guards talk amongst themselves, when someone called my name, i jumped out of my skin, and turned to see Fayte. We greeted each other and we descided that we would go for a drink. I was not keen at this time to go to the Tavern in Trinsic as it still makes me feel uncomfortable but not as much as it did when i lived there.

We headed to New Haven Inn, neither of us had visited here before and to be honest it was frightfully dull. Fayte advised me that they did not sell water, and brought me over some Wine, i was quite nervous as i have seen the effects it has had on people when i worked within Trinsic Tavern.

I sipped slowly to begin with but soon found its taste rather nice, and drank a little faster. Things started changing, the room started spinning and however hard i tried i could not focus my eyes on one place, i felt most perculiar. I remember Fayte saying something about going back to her house. The last thing i remember is stumbling up her path, and then now. I am in this dark dungeon, i feel somewhat weak. I have tried the door but it seems locked.

I feel a sense of heat within me and i have two small marks on my neck like cuts surrounded in dry blood. I also have a strange thirst unlike i have ever felt before.

Journal 7th July 07

I have found the last few days hard to understand, i have not been myself and have being struggling with a great fire that seems to be burning deep within me.
Sometimes the fire seems dim within me other times it consumes my whole body and i seem to lose control or both my body and my mind. I have been trying to be strong and not let it take control, the fire demands blood.

I awoke this morning feeling most strange, the fire seemed like it was to take control at a moments notice, i was within the dark dungeon which i knew belonged to Fayte, I had a rope tied around my neck which was fastened to a large nearby spike. I felt heat rising within me as i was laying on a sharpened nail bed the pain only made the fire stronger..

I must have lost myself to the fire again i regained control and found myself sitting on the floor, the rope around my neck still hung there but was now frayed and not attached to anything, i tried to walk but found myself weak i crawled to the door, and again the fire took control of me.

I blinked, looking up, expecting myself to be in the dungeon but i was not, i was in the room with the skeletons, and standing above me with his wrist in my mouth, blood pouring into me, was Demos, for a moment i wondered if this was an haulsination, and pulled myself away from the wrist that fed me. I was shocked, it seems the fire, the thirst can be quelled with blood, this factor i had not know before. I felt stronger from his blood, and felt able to stand, i looked deep into Demos's eyes and saw that he was both weakening and in pain from his life blood being drained by me. I was concerned for his wellbeing, and also did not know how his wrist had become to be in my mouth, it didn't take long to realise that he had put it there. I know that even though i am strong with the burning fire i am not strong enough to try and attack Demos.

We talked for a short time about what had been happening with myself and then he summoned a gate and we stepped through to Trinsic.

I was quite quiet to begin with still in shock at how events could have brought me to Demos, how i had managed to escape the locked cell and how i had arrived in Trinsic, i hope that during this period of time i had not brought harm to anyone.

Two women stood amongst the many that were gathered at West Gate, Trinsic. I Believe their names to be Kimi and Meygan, Demos complimented one of them on her dress and enquired where he could find such a garment, Kimi advised it was made for her, and Demos offered to purchase it from her, i assume for his lover. The woman refused, Demos seemed a little unhappy but the convosation continued between the two of them.

I was daydreaming, as i often do, trying to piece events out in my confused mind, when i realised in horror i was still wearing the frayed rope around my neck and that it was beginning to chaff. As i did not wish to draw attention to my appearance i asked Demos for a blade which he refused, i do not think he knew the reason i was asking for it, but i understand what with the events of the past few days and that the fire could take control again why he would not agree to giving me such a weapon.

I turned to see the two women whispering to themselves and fear that i may have drawn attention to the status of myself to them. Kimi called me over to her. The women took to me like some injured animal and fussed over me for several minutes which i was not accustom to and did not particularly like. They found a dagger between them and cut the rope from around my neck which i must admit i was happy of as it had been burning me terribly, They gave back the rope to me and continued talking to myself and Demos

The women enquired to how Demos was related to myself, i believe she thought him a slaver and was worried for my safety. I explained that he was not a slaver and was more of a rescuer as he had saved me (with mistress) from the life i had before, i advised them that he had never harmed me, they did not seem satisfied with my answers and asked Demos why i had a rope around my neck.


He explained to them that in the past few days i had become ill and that i was possibly dangerous at times and that was the reason the rope was there, again Kimi did not seem to believe him and asked me the same questions. I advised them i had been bitten by a large dog and had become ill. The advised me they were healers which i somewhat doubted, and asked to see my wound, I showed them the wound on my neck and Kimi poked and prodded it a few times which caused some pain, and seemed happy with my story.

I crossed the path and approached Kaelyn the Captain of the Duchy guard and had a brief word with her, i had been advised by Demos that yesterday i had tried to attack her, i have no memory of this but decided it would be in my best interest to maintain good relations with the Trinsic guards, and apologised to her for my behaviour. She advised me that a member of the family, whose name she did not remember had advised her that i was unwell and that if i entered Trinsic that day (being the day before) that i should not be harmed. I still do not know how i got to Trinsic yesterday or how indeed i came back to being in the dungeon again with the rope around my neck. I walked over to Demos and stood next to him as i had stood before.

Demos had been watching me carefully, maybe he was worried that i would try and attack someone i don't know. The women, Kimi and Meygan asked Demos a few questions about my health and he advised them that the illness i am/had suffered from was rabies and that could be transfered via a bite, he continued talking for some time with them to be honest i wasn't paying much attention to the convosation. Voices between Demos and the two woman became somewhat raised as the topic, of which i am not sure, became somewhat heated. At this point i looked up and saw that Mistress had joined us, she did not seem impressed with Demos and i assume was upset that via this argument that attention had been drawn to us.

She asked Demos, rather politely to apologise to the women for upsetting them, he was not impressed with this request but after some resistance apologised pretty much through gritted teeth to the women. Both women skulked off for some reason leaving us standing there rather bemused.

At some point another lady joined us who i was introduced to, Her name was Gwen and she was a member of the family, and i found out a short time later was a drow, or dark elf. A guard approached us, him being drow also and asked to see Gwens permit, she seemed a little confused as she did not know what the guard was talking about. He advised that all drow had to be registered and carry a permit if they wish to enter the City of Trinsic. To say that Gwen was disgusted by the idea of this would be a grave understatement. Some discussion followed between Demos, Gwen and the Drow guard, although i again had started daydreaming at this point, but did notice that Mistress was talking to Kaelyn the captain of the Duchy guard about the same topic.

I don't know of the result of what happened with the permit descusion but i assume Mistress sorted everything out as she seems good with diplomacy.

Some time passed in daydream and i looked up at a shout of my name, it was Fayte she must have realised i had escaped and come looking for me. Demos was not pleased to see her, as it was obvious from the fact that i was locked away in a dungeon and tied with a rope that i had not been treated well. Demos was just about to start advising her of her latest punishment when Mistress advised that we were drawing allot of attention to ourselves and that we must follow her. I did as she asked as did everyone else and she created a gate which we all stepped through.

On the other side of the gate was a large castle, it seemed very pretty inside with trees and flowers of many kinds, but i did not stop to admire them as Mistress was not happy and i followed everyone into a large library type room.

We all sat down, Mistress seemed very upset with the fact that we had been discussing things out in the open and advised that there was a great lack of obedience and loyalty amongst us. I stayed quiet as i did not wish to make her more unhappy. She seemed unhappy that Demos had not carried out Faytes previous punishment himself but had left Vad to do so instead, she blasted him with some kind of magic spell and he sat there in shock, barely saying a word.

Then she spoke to Fayte about how members of the family should be treated Fayte seemed to regard all that she said with a air of humour, and reacted more as if Mistress were telling some kind of joke rather than issuing a stern reprimand. She also blasted her with some kind of spell, which only resulted in more smiling and laughing from her. Gwen did not seem impressed, although i have known her but an hour or two it is obvious that she is one great with respect for the family.

She attacked Fayte and left her somewhat dazed and somewhat injured but again Fayte seemed to find it somewhat humorous which only led to Gwen having to attack her a second time. I am beginning to wonder at the state of Faytes mind after the way she has no regard or respect for authority and also regarding the way she behaved in siring me and the way she has treated me over the last few days. Punishment does not seem to phase her.

Mistress spoke some more and advised us we were not to set foot in Trinsic for one week as we had raised too much suspicion about the family, i nodded and the she dismissed us all.

As we stood up to leave Demos advised Fayte to take me home, a thought that struck fear into my very being as i did not like the idea of being locked in that dungeon again. He advised Fayte that she would sleep in the dungeon and i was to sleep in her bed, but Fayte argued with him and in the end Demos decided that he would find me a bed for the night. It so seems that the warnings from Mistress only moments earlier regarding loyalty and obedience had fallen on deaf ears.

Demos took me to Staggers a tavern which i have been to several times with both him and Mistress, he advised the innkeeper that he wished a room for me for the next three nights. I thanked Demos as he paid the innkeeper, i wished him goodnight as he advised me he was heading to his home, and followed the innkeeper to my room.

As i was not tired, i visited upon the Mistress as i had received word that Gwen was unable to leave the Island on which the castle was we had visited a short time ago. I offered to go for her but in the end we both left for the island via gate.

We we arrived, Gwen made some comment about me looking weak and i advised her i could use a bow well, she did not seem impressed at my choice of bow and advised me that she would arrange for me to see a friend of hers, at this moment the name escapes me. We gated to her home which is in Felucca a place i had dared not step foot in before this day. Gwen vanished as she advised me that she was tired after the long day and would advise her friend to come and see me shortly.

Less than five minutes later a woman arrived on a strange flying creature a large quiver and bow slung across her back. She seemed shocked to see me but i introduced myself to her and advised her that Gwen had sent me. She wanted to see how well i could handle a bow so took me to a local range i must admit i was very scared walking through Felucca but the woman advised me that she was well known in these parts and that no one would harm us.

I shot several times at the archery target, and took count of the points equalling 210, she did not seem impressed with this result and fired herself at the target earning over 700!

She advised me on the different types of bows and when they should be used. We went back to their house and she told me it was late and she must head to bed, i advised i was going to do the same and headed back to my room at the inn and made a start on my journal...

10th July 07

The past few days, i havent done much to be honest, i have sat in my room as my eyes have been stinging somewhat, the light seems to bright. I can see things though in more detail than i have ever seen before and all the colours seem much brighter. I have also found i have had more strength than ever before and found it quite easy to lift up the chests of drawers in my room alone, something i would never have been able to do before.

I still have not fed upon a human, Demos took me as his mentor to teach the ways of our kind, but after today i have decided that maybe Gwen would be a better choice.

I came out of my room at Swaggers in the late afternoon as i was thirsty and to be honest fancied a little company. I sat down at the bar and looked up to see Demos sitting opposite me, we greeted each other and he bought me a jug of water as i all my coin is at the bank. I lady behind me spoke to the barmaid and told her she was taking a break, i assumed her to be a barmaid as well and my assumption was correct. She sat down next to me, i nodded to her and her to me. She looked somewhat familar to me, and then she advised me we had met ever so briefly before at the Green Goblin. She was the woman that i know Demos is courting.

She refused to tell me her name but knew of mine, and started the convosation by telling me that Demos was her man and that i should leave him alone, she then went on telling me that if i didnt she would rip my head off. I must admit i found this somewhat amusing and told her that i considered him to be more as a father figure. I mumbled a few things that were maybe out of line but to be honest after the way she introduced herself i didnt really care. I said i was surprised that Demos was dating such a jealous woman.

Demos did not seem to like this comment and asked to see me outside, i sighed and followed him outside and a little bit along the shore of the beach. He told me that i should not question his choices, i advised him that it was her who had threatened me but he did not seem to sway his choice.

I handed him the key to my room at the Inn, i had left a few items there but to be honest at this moment i did not care, I told him thank you for paying for me but i would rather sleep on the beach. I did not trust his lover not to put a rat in my bed. Demos then went advising he had to go and do some offical family business.

I headed into swaggers again only to pick up an item i had left at the bar, i dipped my finger into my jug of water and advised 'her' that i did not wish it anymore and mumbled as i headed to the door. A man stood in front of me and tried it on with me, i advised him several times that i wasnt interested.

I also advised 'her' that i did not wish the room any longer, the man advised me that should would not cause me any harm.

Then something happened that i did not expect he apologised to me, advising that she had been jealous, i accepted her apologies, but advised that i still would rather sleep on the beach or find my own accomodation as i need to learn to find for myself.

She introduced herself to me, advised me her name was 'Angie' i said goodbye and headed out the door. Tonight finding somewhere to stay could be interesting, at the moment i am sitting on the beach watching the waves crash in as i write this.

12th July 07

Today I went searching for a home, after spending several nights sleeping on the beach just outside Vesper I have descided that I have had enough, the sound of the sea is relaxing enough, but there are several wild animals in the forest, I was not scared of them it was more the fact that they were so noisy and the beach is not the most comfortable places to sleep as the sand gets everywhere.

I wandered into Britian, there were many people, the usual hussle and bussle, many market sellers trying to flog their wares. I wandered around the stalls, not finding much of interest, the odd item of clothing or piece of fruit, nothing of which took my fancy.

I wandered into the Inn seeking refuge from all the noise and sat at a table with my usual glass of water. On the table next to me were two ratber smart looking gentleman, I heard one talking about his home and that he had a smallish house built on his land but how no one was interested in the property as it had no windows as the builder he had hired was an idiot, although he did not know this at the time obviously.

I pondered for a few moments and then picked up my water jug and walked to his table, introducing myself to him. I told him that I was interested in buying or renting some property but as I ‘worked’ during the nights, a property with no windows would be ideal for me, obviously this was not quite true but I did not wish to draw attention to me or my race. He raised his eyebrows at me somewhat surprised. I asked him the price, and was surprised when he offered it to me for only 20000 gold coins, he told me he had been trying to sell it for many years and was almost on the verge of demolishing the property and starting again as his luck had been that bad.

I headed to the bank and withdrew almost all of the money that I had earnt from killing monsters, there was a small amount left, enough to by me some furniture and some more arrows as I had run out.

I headed back to the man with my heavy purse and showed him that I was not taking him for a fool but that I had the gold. He created a gate and then we went through to the property. It was much larger than I had expected for my money, it was four floors, quite large, and as he said no windows, meaning the property was very dark and needed candles lit all of the time. I nodded to him and told him that I was happy with the property, I handed over my purse to him and he handed me a deed. He still had a look on his face of surprise and bemusement.

I locked the door of the property and then headed out to check out some local vendors for items of furniture, a bed, some cupboards etc, to make my darkened home look more homely.

Once the house was furnished to my liking I headed to Trinsic for a drink as I was feeling quite proud of the days accomplishment. Upon reaching the gate I realised that I had left the small amount of money I had left, which I needed to buy my drink, on the table at home, and headed back to the moongate.

I had gotten to the bridge when I came across a woman, I recognised her somewhat, but did not know from when or where. She said she had seen me before and knew that I was a slave. I looked at her somewhat confused and said that I was not, and did not understand where she got this idea from.

We got talking for some time, she said she was from Nu’jelm and that it was a slaver city and said that I had the look of a slave, after much convincing she seemed to believe me, I even mentioned to her that I had my own house, and that slaves did not have this luxury, I offered to show her my home, and we headed their via the main moongate as it not far a walk from Umbra town.

We arrived at my house I found that I kept looking upon her neck, and wondered to myself if I had not really invited her here to see the house but under some strange compelling need to feed, the fire within me started burning strong and bright, I could almost her heard beating within her chest although I do not know if this was for real or truly my imagination.

We headed into the house, and I quietly locked the door behind me, we both sat down in the area which I had made a kind of meeting come training room. No sooner than we sat down a man appeared behind us, I glared at him, unsure if he had crept in earlier in the day or had followed us, but he seemed to know the woman I had as company, whose name I later found out was Alias. He banged on the door requesting to be let out, he obviously realised that I had locked the door when we came in. I asked him why he was here, he shrugged and said he had followed us hiding in the shadows as we walked.
I sighed and let him out, again locking the door behind me, hoping there were going to be no more unexpected visitors.

We sat and talked more, she told me she was an assassin of sorts, and had killed many a person, I could tell from her build that she was quite strong but yet agile. I descided that it was pretty obvious that it would not be a good idea to feed from her, as I would probally end up getting killed if not badly injured.

I sat and watched her carefully was we talked, offering her some water, I felt a little guilty as I had nothing but waster in the property as that was all I drank (besides blood) and I had not been expecting company.

I sighed, I did not meet to sigh as loudly as I did but it became obvious to her that there was something on my mind. I drew a deep breathe and began to explain to her my story, I had not told anyone outside the family before what I was but I felt a strong trust between myself and Alias and an even stronger need to let this heavy secret burden from my chest.

I told her I had a secret and that she would be shocked and maybe even disgusted by it, she said she had done her share of bad deeds, apparently enough to put the devil to shame. As she spoke I lowered my head, so that I knew she could not see my face, I drew my sharp white fangs, and slowly raised my head and watched the expression upon her face.

It changed from fairly relaxed to a look of horror, her eyes widened and she tightened her hands into fists. I spoke to her reassuring her that I would not hurt her, I told her that it was a possibility that I had lured her to my house to drain her of blood or at least that is what the fire wanted. I explained to her what I was, what needs I had and how I had become this.

I told her that I did not think I would be able to bite someone if they were unaware of what I was, that I was worried how they would reach and if they were to escape and tell someone what I was then my life would be in danger. I could tell she was thinking but she did not talk for some time. When she did she asked me how much blood I needed to feed, and if it would hurt.

I explained to her that I did not know if it would hurt, and that I assumed the amount that needed to be consumed to be around a jug full. She looked somewhat fidgety as she stood up, I stood up with her worried that she may flee and tell others what I had just told her. Then he took my hands and placed them in hers, I looked into her eyes and saw both strength and fear, it confused me somewhat. She told me to drink from her, from her upper arm as if it were to leave a mark it would not be too visable.

I was shocked by what she said I had not expected this. I knew that the time was coming for me to need to feed soon but I assumed I would have to feed from an animal although I knew that this was not considered normal practice by my kind and was seen to be an act of desperation and showed the person to be very low.

I nodded, she guided my hands to her arm, and closed her eyes, I tried to be as gentle as I could, turning her upper arm outwards slightly and towards me. I took a deep breathe and watched as she closed her eyes in expectation. I then lowered my head towards her and bit slowly into her flesh.

The taste of her blood was sweet and warm against my tongue, It tasted much better than the blood I had previously of Demos, and I could finally understand why it was humans that our kind fed upon. I watched her face for signs of pain and watched it crease slightly as I bit her. I slowly dug my teeth deeper into her soft arm. Trying hard not to lose control and let the fire take over, it took all of my strength,. I began to suck at her arm, letting her blood flow into me. She moaned lightly, I am unsure whether it was in pain or pleasure but she did not motion me to stop, so I continued to feed from her.
I could feel her heart beat within her blood flow, strong and fast I matched my sucking motions in time with its strong beats

With every drop of her sweet blood I drank I felt it fueling the ever growing fire within me, I tried to repress it but it took every ounce of my being. After I had drank about half a pint of her blood I felt her knees grow weak and put my arm around her in order to hold her up. I slowly withdrew my teeth from her and watched her eyes flicker somewhat.

Looking at her, I realised what I had become, I felt guilty and almost wished her blood would stop coursing through me. I laid her onto the floor, slowly and carefully not wanting to harm her further, her eyes kept flickering but besides that their was no movement for several moments.

If my heart did beat, I swear at this time I would have felt it stop every second she lay there feeling like an eternity. Eventually she opened her eyes and looked up at me, I felt myself sigh in relief.

I watched her carefully, I could literally see her strength returning to her over the ten minutes she laid there. She slowly sat up and wobbled slightly as she stood, I guided her to a nearby chair and she sat down. I asked her if she wanted anything to eat or drink hoping it would help her regain further strength and make me feel less guilty, she asked for some water and I unlocked the door and headed out with an empty jug to fill it from a nearby well.

She started by sipping at the water, and then literally guzzling it, within moments it was gone, we both looked at the empty water jug rather shocked.


When she had seemed to regain her composure i asked her if the experience had hurt, she replied that it did when i first bit her, but that then she felt pleasure, but she had felt me struggle with my inner beast and fire, because it had started to become somewhat painful just before i stopped sucking her blood and pulled my teeth from her arm.


I nodded slowly still feeling a little guilty but less so because of how she had described the experience to me. We talked for a while longer, i explained how the fire fought with me to control me and how that i hated the fact i had to drink blood in order to survive, she turned to me and said something which now makes more sense, again she told me i am a slave, i had never thought of what i had become in that way before.


I am glad that i had told her, although still somewhat nervous about being found out, possibly hunted and killed, but the weight had been lifted and i had found a friend, i just hope the only reason she is my friend is not because she fears me or my kind, it would be nice to have a tie to the world of humans, of what i once was....

23rd July 07

I havent written much in the past few days, as i have been busy with my training, nothing particularly eventful has taken place until yesterday that is....

I headed to Skara Brae there was a carnival of sorts, a few stalls, a tarot reader and a few fighting stands, nothing particularly of interest to be honest. I met with Marcus, a fellow member of the family, he is of a different clan to me but seems very friendly. We spoke for a short time at Skara then headed back to my abode. I advised him that i had missed Mistress Jades class which she had held a few days earlier, advising 'new' vampires on feeding and hunting techniques, i was quite upset that i had missed this as i had been looking forward to this event, but i had gotten carried away in my training and totally lost track of the time on the day which it was held.

Marcus seemed interested in the fact i was not versed in feeding techniques and we sat down and he advised me of them, telling of many different types and that i would over time, find the best one to suit myself.

He told me some of our kind didnt like socialising and confrunting their food and prefered to feed on a sleeping victim whilst others enjoyed a game of trying to seducing the victim and relaxing them, lulling them into a false sense of security before feeding upon their blood when they least expected it.

Marcus fed on me, advising me he prefered himself to feed upon vampires rather than humans, but that some vampires found this not to work as it tends to form a bond between the drinker and the vampire. However his clan were immune to this, which is why he enjoyed drinking from our kind even more.

After my brief lesson on feeding, i could feel the fire burning within me, it was time for me to feed anyway having been over a week since my last drink of blood.

One of the skills i had been training in the past week was that of disguise, i changed my clothing and appearance thought of a new name for myself, as this was my first real hunt i thought there may be a possiblity of being caught and i did not want to put myself in much danger or bring any suspicion to what i or the family are.

I headed back to the carnival and wandered around carefully trying to choose my victim. There was a man standing by some stones, which i knew he owned if you could say that, i took one of them and ran, as i had hoped the man followed me, i ran some distance and stopped to let him catch up. He asked me for the stones, i gave them back, we had a brief discussion and it was in this time that i desided that this was not the victim i would like, he did not seem much of a challenge for myself, and i headed back to the where the carnival was being held.

Most of the people who were visiting the carnival had gathered around a stage to watch some kind of performance, i watched for a brief moment and got bored.. but there was a man, a man in uniform at the back row, i knew him and had seem him around and knew he was of some importance to Maginicia. I walked over to him. He seemed involved in watching the performance, i kissed the back of his neck slowly. He all but jumped at my kissing and turned to look at me.

I doubt he knew who i was, as i said i was in disguise, and even if i wasnt i doubt he would know me anyway. I took his hand and led him over to the harbour, we talked and i seduced him somewhat, trying to kiss his hand, but he was not interested to begin with. We both said it was a little crowded here, so i summoned a gate and led him through.

We arrived at Marble Isle and we walked south to the small cliffs by the sea, i sat down and he eventually joined me, sitting at my side. We spoke briefly, exchanged the odd pleasantry and our names. I began to kiss him again on the neck he didnt seem to resist this time. He looked rather tense so i began to rub his shoulders, and he seemed to relax. He was looking out to sea deep in thought, but i did not know what was on his mind.

I continued kissing him till i could take it no longer, the fire within me taking control, i kissed him and drew out my fangs, biting him gently. To my surprise he did not react much but just closed his eyes. I retracted my teeth from the flesh on his neck, placing my hand to the back of his neck to hold his head steady, in case he grew faint. And then i started to feed on him. Slowly sucking his blood feeling it coarse into my body. Sweet and strong, flooding into me in waves with the beats of his heart. I could feel his pulse in my head, slowing somewhat. I felt him go somewhat faint as i looked behind me, and to my surprise saw Marcus for a moment before he vanished into nothingness. I assume he was checking up on my progress, and was not wanting to feed on my victim.

After some time my belly began to grow full, i pulled away and as i had been taught, licked the two puncture wounds on Dawson's neck they healed and i smiled contently to myself.

Dawson was all but laying on the floor at this point. I left him for a moment to regain a little strength, i knew he would have no memory of me feeding upon him.

After several minutes i came up with an idea, i slapped him very lightly on the face and he started to wake up, slurring slightly and looking a little pale. I told him that he had, had to rest as he had drunk to much ale, he coughed a few times and i was briefly worried that maybe i had drunk to much of his life blood.

He said he could not remember drinking but i had a feeling that the feelings he felt would be simular to those of drinking to much. He seemed to believe my story.

I helped him to his feet, we turned and saw two orcs, for a moment i was startled and a little surprised, i then started to sense that they were not orcs, and could feel that it was Mistress and Demos. I then remembered the discussion i had with Mistress earlier in the day where she had asked me to get an orc mask and clothing for a mission we were going to carry out, and it all become somewhat clearer.

I pretended to look scared and basically asked Dawson to protect me, he tried to fight but had no fight left in him as he was weak from blood loss, he stumbled alittle before Mistress cast a few spells before he finally fell to the floor.

Mistress and Demos carried him through a gate to Mistress's home which i was asked to summon. They took him to the top floor and through the tile i am not allowed to access. I left them their a swift end to the day, i do not know for sure what will happen to him, whether his comrades will seek him out, or indeed what is beyond that door. I would not risk entering, it is more than my life is worth.

I went home, to bed and to rest.

The next night i headed out after training for several hours, i had heard through rumor that many people would be going to the Trinsic Rose, a tavern just outside Trinsics boundaries. The entrance to the town was empty so i headed there.

As i entered i noticed only one face that i recognised that of Stewan the cook, a friend i have come to know well, he introduced me to his Lady, i joined them at their table, for a short time before she left leaving the two of us. We spoke for a while, i get the impression that he is aware of what i.. what our family are the convosation at times almost seemed like a riddle.

After a while Alias joined us she looked around the bar, her expression changed when she saw me, she seemed happy to see me, she joined us at the table, there was brief convosation, the odd pleasantry and then Stewan departed to go home to bed. Alias said she had to go attend to some business but that she urgently wished to meet up with me later. I told her to contact me by pidgeon when she was available to meet.

I headed home to start work on my journal. I was several pages into it when i
heard a flapping of wings outside my door. I opened it, the pidgeon flew around the room before settling on the table, i grabbed it quickly and untied the note from its foot it was from Alias, as i had expected arranging to meet at Trinsic moongate, i let the bird free and headed to the location straight away.

I stood at the moongate for a few moments lingering in the shadows before showing myself, i knew that Alias was also skilled at hiding and was unders the impression that she too was already here. I showed myself as did Alias, She told me she needed to talk to me urgently, I asked her if she wished to head to somewhere more private and she nodded. I created a moongate to my home and we stepped through.

Upon entering the house Alias seemed somewhat agitated and a look of confusion upon her face. I asked her what was so urgent he advised me that she had a strong urge to see me. I was a little confused but then my mind wandered back to what Marcus had said the day before about blood bonds, and it clicked within me that this must have happened to Alias

She said she wanted to feel what she had felt last time i had fed on her, the erotic warm feeling but was concerned that this was wrong and knew if i fed from her again that in the future the urge for her to visit me and for me to feed would grow stronger. She advised me she did not want to become as what i was, i think this was her main concern, i advised her that i could not, even if i wanted to make her as me, as i was not high enough in the family to make her like us.

I watched her face carefully, a battle being fought inside her as to what she wanted and what she thought was right. I told her that the choice was hers, many times but she could not seem to decide.

Then as i grew under the impression we would be here all day she placed her hand behind my head and told me to go for it.

I slowly bit into her warm flesh, withdrawing my teeth and feeling her warm sweet blood on my tongue and streaming down my throat. It felt so good, i know i had fed less than 24 hours ago but it felt so much better.. so much sweeter i think i prefer the taste of women's blood it tastes so much sweeter.

I drank from her, feeling her go slightly limp i wrapped my arms around her supporting her and stopping her from falling. I felt her grip my shoulder and her nails digging into my cold flesh, i knew it was time to stop feeding on her, i knew that the fire was trying to consume me and that i was causing her pain.

I pulled away slowly, planting small kisses around her wound before licking it causing the gushing wound to heal over almost instantly. Alias moaned and felt weak, i almost lifted her from her feet, and slowly lowered her to the floor, laying her down softly. Her eyes flickered a little as i rested her head in my lap slowly running my hand through her hair and humming and singing to her, as she started to regain her strength slowly.

We spoke for some time, about many things, but mainly what i was, i told her it was a vicious cycle we were in.. her feeling pain and longing for me to feed on her, and pleasure for her as i fed. Pleasure for me as i fed on her but pain as i felt the more i drink the more humanity i am losing. I knew at this point that we would never be far apart and that she would come back to me for me to feed again and again.

18th August 07

I have not written in some time, i have been away from home, travelling around and forgot to take my journal with me. I will write all that is fresh in my memory but the dates, dates are something i have never been that good at.

I have been focusing alot on improving myself and making myself better so that i can help the Tremere family as much as i can.

I have been practising hiding in the shadows and find it, interesting to hear what people say when they think they are alone or talking privately.

I have also been spending alot of time in Trinsic, listening to people and generally talking and gaining the trust of the locals and the Trinsic guards. I was not sure that this task was going to bear fruit until a few days ago, a somewhat crazed man ran into Trinsic via the west gate where myself and quite a few other folk and guards were gathered. He shouted that he had been at the local tavern and had apparently been attacked by a vampire, it took me but a moment to realise that only a few people would have been stupid enough to let him run around screaming and had not killed him before he reached Trinsic.

The first two names on the tip of my tongue were that of my sire and grandsire; Fayte and Vad. I armed my weapon as did the other guards and locals, after much convincing i managed to make one of the guards Herenui believe me that the man who was shouting was either drunk or somewhat insane and that of course vampires did not exist , she spoke to the other guards and managed to convince them of the same. Hmm i knew that spending my time being 'friendly' with the folk of Trinsic would have come in handy at some point.

Then something i did not expect happened and raised the situation to a whole new level of stupidity. Vad, alone walked down the path. If i had been alone i probally would have smacked myself in the face as i could not believe what was happening. Again the crazed man started screaming that this was one of the vampires who tried to attack him and all my hard work at convincing everyone came apart at the seams.

I held back a growl, barely and greeted Vad threw gritted teeth. I turned to Herenui and said that he was my friend, and was no more a vampire than i was. I managed to surpress a chuckle at what i said, and Heredui seemed convinced. She told the other folk and guards that she knew and trusted me and that if i vouched for this man then he must be alright. Again the guards seemed convinced of this, and after much further ramblings from the crazed man he left and the situation calmed down.

I must have a word with Vad in private, i do not know at this time if Fayte was involved in this 'attack' but i have learnt from my teachings with Lady Jade that as vampires we must be descrite, i dont think that Vad has learnt this lesson yet.

I have taken to using a disguise kit much whilst hunting for food, that way if my prey does escape then they dont truely know my face and it will not cause any problems in the future for either myself or the family.

I came upon a gentleman yesterday standing outside Trinsic gate, he had a strong smell about him and it was obvious to me that he was of our kind. I hid in the shadows around him to see what he was doing, but forgot the obvious that if i could smell vampire on him, that he too would be able to smell me. Once the other passersby had gone into Trinsic he asked me to show myself. Which i did at once, not wanting to enrage a fellow vampire. We talked a while in deep whisper about several things but he did not seem forthcoming with information, he stated that he was searching for his Lord and Lady to speak with them, i assume from his scent that he is of Tremere. He stated that he had been away for some time, and i remembered a comment made my Demos saying that sometimes our kind slept for long periods of time i assumed this is what the gentleman meant.

I introduced myself to him and he did the same advising me that his name was Kaeron, he seemed very well dressed. We spoke a little about this and that and i advised him that i was hungry, he stated that he had just fed. I managed to convince him that there was always room for more food and that i would enjoy the pleasure of 'dining' with him and we heading off in search of food.

We headed into the Tavern that i originally worked in and he stated that the 'food' was not of satisfactory standard in there and we headed searching for the right kind of 'food' we walked along the streets which were deserted and to the bank which was the same. I can only think that possibly the local folk were either all asleep or possibly afraid of orcs as i heard previously that they had been coming and causing problems in Trinsic recently.

After much searching he stated that he was tired and was to retire to his bed, i bid Kaeron goodnight and headed off to search for a bite to eat.

As i wandered outside the town i spied a man pulling a cart with apples upon it, i spoke to him and enquired on the price of the apples he advised me the price and i pretended to haggle with him on it. When i was sure that no one was around us on the path or in the shadows, i dropped an apple on the floor, as he was bending down to pick it up i struck, sinking my teeth into his neck, i placed a hand over his mouth to stop him from making sound and the man bit into my hand with his teeth, i kicked him in the stomach and he fell to the floor where i continued feeding till i felt my belly full of his warm blood. I ran my hand over his neck wound and left him, in a very confused state and trying to check the dropped apple for bruises.

It was then that i headed back to my home and set upon writing my journal.

8th September 07

I fail to understand how things manage to get so twisted and complicated, yet as i feel more on the blood of humans, elves and the like i feel a part of my humanity slipping away from me, a part i know that i know i can never reclaim.

I feel my heart is hardening, that i am changing, i have changed physically from elf to what i am now. I wonder if because of what i have become whether my soul and mental state need to change to. I wonder what i will become after this transformation has taken place.

I seem not to want to find friends, only people i can use to my advantage. My loyalties to the family grow stronger with each passing night and my ties with the physical world lessen, i will admit only to myself that i am deeply afraid of what is to come.

Diary of Events

Several nights ago after a sucessful feeding, on a lone human who was walking through the woods outside Trinsic. I descided that i wanted to know more about my family bloodline, knowing that it was Fayte that turned me into what i am, and knowing i am not technically a true Tremere i wanted to know of what lineage i actually am.

I wandered to Faytes house in Malas i entered the home and heard noises, to begin with i wondered if there was an intruder, but after a brief moment and a few memories surfacing in my head reminding me of when she imprisoned me i realised it was most likely to be a prisoner or 'leftovers'.

I wandered into the dungeons, memories flickered in my mind but seemed so long ago, like it was another life, the dungeon since my last 'visit' here had been changed, rearranged somewhat. I heard a moan coming from one of the cells and looked down to see a female, to be honest it was dark and i am uncertain of whether she was human or female, she groaned as i approached and i saw a key hung upon the wall, i placed it in the lock and the door opened.

I looked down at the sorry state of a person laying on the floor, barely able to move, and it stirred something inside me, a part i thought i had lost. She reminded me of myself. She looked like she had been there some time, i realised from the sealed wounds on her neck that she had been 'dinner' probally from several days earlier.

My first instinct would have been to finish this sorry sight off, feeding from her would easily kill her, but.. although i am becoming evil itself, i have never killed to feed and did not at this time overstep this line which once crossed could never go back.

I lifted her to feet, and after rumaging through my rucksack i gave her some fish that i had on me. She ate it hungrily within moments it was gone. An anger burned inside me it was now totally apparent she had been forgotten. I wondered in the time after my turning if i too had been forgotten and that if Fayte had not returned, or if i had not the strength to escape would i have become as weak and frail as the one who now stood in front of me.

I half walked with her, half carried her out of the cell and into the dungeon, then out up the steps into the main house. I asked her (i later found out her name was Flipper later) if she was a magic user, and she nodded, i asked her if she was strong enough to cast spells and advised her to go to an inn and get some more food and rest. She recalled and i left the house.

Several days after this i was wandering around Trinsic Gate and saw Fayte in the distance, i felt sure she would know it was me that let her leftovers go and that she would be angry with me. I hid in the shadows so she would not see me, She approached a drow and began talking to her, the topic i do not know as i was not actually paying attention. Fayte looked around i forgot that she would probally feel my presense as most vampires do. After some discussion with the drow Fayte invited her back to her home, i sighed silently to myself, thinking that maybe she was going to do the same all over again with another dinner.

Fayte created a gate and walked through it the drow following close behind, i walked through, but the gate was in a clearing and i was not hidden to begin with and i swear that Fayte saw me, although the drow did not seem to.

I knew for certain that Fayte knew i was here because after they entered her home she closed the door, damn i thought to myself, i wanted to see what was going on, I pushed the door and opened it walking through still sticking to the shadows.

I watched as Fayte offered the person a chair i stood there and got bored as they talked daydreaming to myself, before i realised i blinked and realised that they had left the room. I looked around for them and wandered to the dungeon. I saw them in a cell and followed them into it.

I do not know what had happened whilst i had been daydreaming but as i looked at Fayte she sunk her teeth into the Drow. I showed myself and Fayte told me to drink from the drow, i turned my nose up, drow is not a taste i like, but she pushed the drow towards me forcing me to drink, i drew my teeth and bit the drow, much further down from where Fayte had drunk on the neck. As i started to drink the earthy blood, i wrinkled my nose, as i felt a rumble and i flew backwards almost tearing out my teeth as the drow had transformed into a large earth elemental. I blinked back the tears of pain wondering if i was hallucinating after a few moments the elemental turned back into the room, and i fled the house in confusion.