First Entry: May 30,

Well today was a bit difficult. I got drunk today with Cylvia and made a fool of myself in front of Samson. I needed the bridge to help steady my frame. Not a good thing. If Garod saw me or Jen I would be really upset. But Samson did help me and had me sit for a bit.
Rikku better warn Nick about Aluc. It seems Nick did something to Aluc that was not good. He says that Nick took a piece of his armor. Then he asked me questions about Rikku and Nick's relationship it was a fun game but I do not like the way he was looking for it. I will tell Rikku privately of the situation. Hope she isnt too made with me
Nothing else of importance happened other than my trips to Cove, a girl from Cove came to Trinsic today and we sat and talked. I called a breeze to help her feel comfortable.

May the Goddess Lead You to Your Destination and Keep You Safe

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June 1


Well I tried to warn Nick about Aluc's plan to do him in. But it backfired on me. He imprisoned me for it. I know that I should not have done such a deed but Rikku is friends with Nick and I did not want to see her fall for Aluc's vengance. On a brighter note, I did not tell him the entire plan because I did not know fully Aluc's intentions. In Aluc's defense, Aluc did say he was attacked and had a piece of armor taken from him. I did ask Nick for it back. For his reply, I spent some time in the jail and I think that I was spotted by an elder or two. *Sob* I am failing my duties to the family. I was torn by the needs of both Rikku and Aluc. But when I discussed this with Rikku, she was no longer interested in Nick. I will need to choose sides carefully. The needs of the family are great. How do I know how to choose? May the goddess give me wisdom.


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June 3,

It is very unsettling. My fears have come and manifested themselves this evening. I am seeing myself torn in two by my duties to Lord and Mistress. I know that I must do what is asked, no demanded by M'Lord, but I do not wish to seem to be mistrustful among the others. The dealings with Ikus and Elias may tear the family apart. I can not live with this happening again. I will not see my new family snuffed out by those ill-guarded virtues. I will do what M'Lord wishes though I have some resolve in doing this task. I will be cool like the northern wind and yet gentle among storm. I am vessel of the Fates, sister to the winds, and keeper of my family's heart.

I have been promised a reward for my fruitful harvest. I am not sure of what is to come; I don't know what could happen to M'Lord once he has tasted of my blood. The elemental squall that has mingled within my being is something difficult to control at times. If my master benefits from the union I would be glad in it. If the elemental part in me dies I fear that it would end my being. I need to seek other beings similar to myself and ask them about my gifts. I need to ease my fears.


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June 14

It has been a while since I have written, I have had several things to happen and do. I have been given the priviledge of M'Lord's blood; and just a drop of it was what I sensed about him - Pure Ancient Power. My heart cried for more and I could not resist the offering. I sensed his strength and wisdom as I took of him. I look forward to the next meeting.
Another nice thing that has happened is that I have moved recently. I took Muldran's old library and I look forward to inviting the family over to see it? I have asked a contractor to fill an order for furniture and other things. I await his return. I want to put a party together but with the reopening of the tavern it might be too much.
I have given my time to the Poisoned Elf, I will be making posters and doing runestones for people to come and attend. I look forward to seeing a huge turnout with a variety of houses attending. It should be interesting.
I will be back shortly to finish


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June 16,

To my great misfortune, I missed out on the festivities of The Poisoned Elf the other day. I heard from Ayame that it was a real social event. I wonder if Relious or Drax was there and if they were asking about me. *Laugh* I cant believe what I am thinking. Wonder what Garod would say of it? I will need to keep this to myself for a bit I think. I do not want him to find out that I have any feelings for these Knights, I do not want him to take them away or forbid me to converse with them. In either case I dont think that it would be any good to come of it. I will just have to accept the negative and that I will get hurt in the matter. The feeling of rejection is aweful, once Garod gets news of it or if the Knights know of my path *Shakes head*. What am I to do?

Goddess give me the patience of the wind to wither away the stubborn mountain.

I wish I was there the other day to see Elias get his puppy's tail handed to him by M'Lord. Poor Jen, I know her feelings have been turned upside down recently but to choose Ikus over Elias? What could we gain with that alliance? I hope Elias is not bitter. I was surprised when he thought of me to put on his list of women. It was pleasant but not likely for me to join him. I would not want that type of pressure from the family. I would hate to have Ariel be my stepchild *Cringes*. I simply would not want any of it at all.


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June 24,

Another try at writing today. The past week was very quick. Two nights ago I saw Ariel, Elias's child. I was discussing with her the evening events, when a comment about Elias being a Tremere and a threat against Mlord. I was really upset but kept myself composed due to the decree by Garod to not fight any of Elias's children. I was slapped twice for my comments, which really did not warrant any retibution on Ariel but she was showing her teeth and temper. I stood my ground and finally she left me out by the Western Trinsic Gate.



I do wait for Relious's knighthood ceremony, I got him a few gifts. I also got a new clothes for the activity. I wait for the time and date of the feast. I should ask one of the family to attend with me.


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June 29,

It was stange talking with him, it seemed that he did not want me there. I could not understand his behavior. I was a fool. A silly, silly fool. My heart feels like it was torn in pieces. Garod was right, we are destined to walk on different paths. This is the last time I will speak of Relious. My eyes will not shed a single tear for him any more. I will draw the wind to protect me from those who will come too close. I will not have myself hurt by any man again.

The next time we meet we will be like strangers. I will not concern myself with his...*looks away*. Relious I will never forget the way you made me feel and you betrayed me. Still when I offered you my heart you could not take it. Who is the weak one?

*Sobs*


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July 4,

Let me talk of an interesting traveler that I have met recently he goes by the name of Odeion. He is a monk from the strange islands of Tokuno. He is a teacher of such and does not like to see things wasted. He confronted a wizard the other day in Trinsic when he killed a chicken and did not bother taking the meat or feathers. Interesting. He seems to enjoy the peaceful side of life, and I have become very fond of our talks. I have started to bond with the man. His feelings are very strange. He becomes very calm and nothing has ever phased him though he stared down a warrior but no weapons were drawn. He stayed calm. I would wonder what would happen if he had the notion to let go? I wonder if he would be explosive and wild like a thunderstorm.

*Sighs* I miss going to the ocean and calling forth a hurrican. The storm would rage and then like exhailing would calm my blood. I havent done so here recently. My aunt would call the waves to crash on the land, *Smiles* how the people in Moonglow would run. Then my fierce winds would howl and scream for thier souls, just like a lullaby. I would ride those howls into the township and watch the people flee. I havent done that since my first bleed. It was the most calm I have ever felt before.

I am concerned however about my changes that have happened recently since my first blood. I have had dreams of M'Lord. These dreams were not like the love for a Lover or anything like that but more of nightmares and death. I have seen people of old, ancient times. I have not understood them, I have seen his dealings with a tall man, dark and forbidding. I have seen him as a child, playing in the fields. It is rather strange, where he has been these pictures turn to pools of blood. I feel almost sick with these thoughts and dreams. More so, I wonder if I should write them down and ask him of it. He still frightens me, when we are alone. The power he possesses and the tendrils of life that are extened from him can freeze my blood like an artic wind.

Soon I will come to understand the other side of life, I will become part of the cycle, a hunter, a soul stealer. I hope that it will be soon, I grow hungry. I do not wish to be myself, it hurts too much. I want to hunt the night, take of its flesh, and feel the freedom of my full elemental gifts.

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July 7,

The wytch in me has been growing with each passing day. My aunt told me my powers will come quickly but I did not understand what she was stating at the time. I have had something close to love but I lost it. Now I have found it again and not sure about it. Do I have your interest? My aunt has stated that when a wytch grows her powers of influence grows too. I guess that is true. I am confused to the attention the men are giving me in Trinsic. But in the same breath I am drawn to it like a moth to a flame. Odeion is an Abbot to an order of Monks who came from Tokuno. He is very gentle and I enjoy talking with him. He plans to see to his order and possibly step down from being Abbot. I know what Garod would say and I cringe. *Rubs hands* I need to bring him in front of Garod and the rest of the family. What can a Monk bring to the family? I am foolish *Shakes head* foolish, foolish.

Should I tell Odeion of my position in the family? Would I end up hurting him? My connection to the family and to Garod's favor could deminish.

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June 12,

I had my fourth drink the other day. Garod was disappointed with my behavior during my feeding. I could not help myself, I do not want to make an excuse for my behavior but I haven't talked with M'lord for days and *Shakes head*. Garod will discuss my embrace soon. I don't know when though but I am very nervous about the ceremony. He has warned me of my emotions and how they could harm me if they are not put in check. My storms have been swirling since I have come to my family's house. I do not understand the reason behind it. I do wish my aunt Fia was alive to give me guidance. I might wish to call to her this evening.

Now it seems I have told Garod of Odeion. I find it hard to keep things from him. I am fearful of his choice of words and that Odeion could be harmed in the process. Odeion was very sweet when we talked today. He stated he was not afraid and was concerned that I thought him to have fear. *Smiles in rememberance* how he does calm the storm that churns in my heart.

I was hoping that Garod would talk with him first, but Alynora took that priviledge from him and questioned our intentions. I was paralized with uncertainty and furious at the questioning. I cut my anger deep into my palm and Alynora was quick to help herself to a sample. She did wait however for us to leave. Among the house, she is the only one that I cannot connect to, I am fearful of this. I cannot read her feelings or even a hint to her inner motives. I cannot tell if she keeps them to herself or for the better part, brings them to the open and I am just too blind to see it.


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July 19,

Last night was really wonderful. I felt as if I was flying in a tornado. My eyes wanted to see everything. My senses were spilled over with sensations. I could not explain and the words would not do it justice. I will say that I felt every living thing around me. My elemental was stirring with sure vigor and enjoyed causing mischief. I felt it stirring in me wanting to let go and I could not stop it, I did not want to stop it.

Garod told me I will be needing to learn my skills. I know I have more responsibility in the family now. I look forward to the studies. I am sure with his centuries, the learning would be good. Hopefully soon I will have my first trip to his private library. I can't wait...hahahah forgot.


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Nov. 21, 05

Well it seems that I have not been writing in you for a long time. Odeion is possibly lost. I hope nothing has happened to him, if he left on his own, I could understand with time. *Sighs* One good thing is I have been busy with other things... It seems that a member of the Ashen Circle has taken in interest in subterfuge. But we shall see how it goes. I am glad to have my head into something interesting.


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December 26, 05

My, my, my, it has been a long time since I wrote in this journal. Terrible, but I will make it up to you.

Since my last visit seems that Odeion has left for good. I have stopped sensing him since October. I guess the loss has been great for me. I sent out my elemental strands to help find him but nothing. Even Drax and Kimi have tried but to no avail. I have been lost without him for months but....*stiffens back* Well on to new things.

Berek is the new person in my life well not really, more like a someone to be pittied. It seems that he has an unusual curse. Seems like a dark force has taken him over and is causing him to change. My job is to find out what it is and see if the family can use it. Muldran is on the case but I feel something is amiss than usual with him. It seems that Berek is connected to the Bloodgate. I dont really understand it and how it impacts me, but Mlord has an interest in it then I do too. I just do not understand what to do with it once I find it.

I have found my Aunt Fia's book from the Sisterhood of the Moon. Hopefully the binding spells can help seal the creature from Berek's body. I do hope to use it as a key of some sort later to locate the actual gate and to see it possibly used. Maybe combine the dark element with a vessel. That is still possible, but the vessel will have to be stronger than just a Templar. *Smiles*

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Dec. 30, 05

The year is coming to a close and such things have been given and taken from me. But that is what is to be.... I feel as though my responsiblility has been growning in the family though Mlord is on other things, I can feel his eyes watching over me.

One big thing is my Aunt Fia's books. I have found one. It contains many of my aunt's spells from the Sisterhood of the Moon. And it was rather interesting upon how I found it. While scrying in a pool for a cure for Berek, the book appeared right in the water. As the book came into view it looked solid. I reached into the water mirror and pulled it out. I could not believe it, my aunt must have heard me as the book took form in the water. Now if the others are out there it might be possible to locate them.

My aunt was unique wytch, instead of one elemental she took five. Yes there are only known four elements, water, earth, air, fire and such, but my aunt also talked about a fifth element. Not sure what it is. But I know that there are now three more books out there. I need to locate them and gain that knowledge that I have lost.


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Jan 1, 06

Well the wheels keep spinning as the clock turns.

Hmmmm....... Today I saw some undead running about the outskirts of the city. Interesting lot these undead, and yes the guards were running about as usual trying to make their bones turn to dust....but they got away. Foolish guards, *shakes head* almost pathetic of them to leave Ikus about unattended for such a long time. I think that if one of the visitors were to wait patiently that Sir Ikus would have met an unfortunate accident. *Grins* But oh no, there had to be a few zealots about. One stranger came to talk with me, well only to be rude and tell me I smelled of death....what would he know or I for that matter what death smelled like. But that did not end there. It seemed that Decardo and his wife the Lady Cherry was about as well. Decardo gave the gentleman a bag of sorts. Not sure what it had in it, though I know that Decardo once hunted vampires for sport. When was the last time he had a near fatal accident?

But still I am very shocked at the way the stranger was questioning me and making rude comments. I told him that there is worse things than death.....his ignorance. I then walked away. Hmmmm, interesting he was rather fun to play with, though his manners were less than pleasant but, well we shall see.....

I have the components to the spell, I await for Raven to come and deliver the rest of them. I havent seen her for awhile hope that no harm has come to her. Pitty really, she holds great promise would not want her to fail, especially with me gaining more ground in the family. But she has shown great skills in fighting and magery. She is defenitely a keeper.

May the winds give you wings and the moon guide you in your travels.


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April 5, 06

Seems the new member might give Demos a run for position in the family. He does seem to be somewhat familiar to me. It might be his mohawk warrior's cut. He does remind me of Hew. I guess that is why I have taken such a liking to the man child. Something is there, a thurst inside of him for power. I do not know if it is spurned for hatered or need for revenge. Thus far he has been able to complete his charge with getting a certain black stone and seeing to Umbra for a talisman. I would like to see him beat Demos. Demos needs to learn humility.

I have set Blake to find more about this Mind-Flayer, not sure if I said it correctly, but Grim told me this thing has tentacles round its mouth *shivers* and needs water put on it to keep moist. Sounds like a large octopus or sqid to me. Would like to know what he plans on doing. Seems that some of the drow are upset. Blake needs to be careful.

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April 8, 06

The dreams are becoming more vivid with each episode. I can feel myself walking on Moonglows soft earth and the sea gulls calling. My aunt Fia awaits me. She has been relentless with her callings. Sometimes I can feel myself slip into the nothingness even when I am awake. My daydreams have taken a strange turn. Her hauntings have whispered warnings for those I care about. I have to find out what she wants.

I told Grim the other day. I still dont understand why I still have held back from him. I feel that it is my nature to protect the ones I care for even if it is against my own feelings. But I told him I would be leaving and have given him my belongings to keep. I do hope that he understands I will try to return to him as fast as I can.

Blake will be given to Demos as a study. His abilities will need to be tested and I think Demos is the one to do it. Demos is quite arrogant and hopefully with a charge it will sooth his behavior. I will keep an ear to them. This will be interesting to see how Demos handles his position. He will not be allowed to harm the charge and soon Blake will rise in rank. He shows promise as a house guard. It will be Blake who will decide his destiny by sword or book.


With swift feet I will leave. With I swift heart I shall return.


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April 9, 06

I made it to Moonglow and the place has changed much since I was here last that was about eight years ago. There are still some scars that blind my eyes to the beauty that it still possesses. I would love to burn the city down and dance naked with my sisters around the flames and ambers. Our old meeting area was around the Moongate here by Moonglow. The dancing would last all night the woods would be alive with numerous animals and the howls of the wolves would send our turns spinning. Enough of this walk....

I await the next dream, the ladies in white. I will wait for my aunt to come and tell me more of her directions. The wind carries her voice calling to me her touch brushing against my skin. All will be told soon.


I walk on the winds and call you by name. My child come sit upon my lap and let me tell you a story....


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April 20, 06

I think that my patience have been growing thin. My aunt must be testing them for I haven't seen them for some time. I wonder what they want from me? These things are never good. The white dresses that we wear tend to symbolize death and rebirth rituals. The spells usually take the force from the caster, the white color helps preserve the energy and reflects it back into the spell instead of dispersing it. Though this thought has nothing to do with me being here or why I would remember such a thing is beyond me. I must think of something else.

Grim....*smiles gently* the last time we actually talked was about your ward. You have planned to start her training in the Arcane arts. With such a young pupil I know that the sisterhood would give a pet to keep help guide them. There are different animals and beast in our world to draw from for a regular pet but the animal will become more than a mere pet. The animal will have a specific duty and love for the being. They will guide them and help them in their training. The beast also reflects the wytch's character in some way. I remember my first familiar...*sighs* I am sure it will not be a surprise to anyone. I had a cat familiar. One of the strongest entities that could be made. The cat is familiar with all things unseen and aides the wytch with her tapping into that realm. If you are careful you could use the cat to cross over to the realm of shadow. A very good dealings if you are a medium.

Other creatures that have been used before that I can remember

a frog - sensibility to magic workings and such knowledge
a snake - healing properties and potions
a bat - similar to the cat but a connection to the dark plane
a wolf - strength and affinity to nature
a cat - things unseen or unknown, a key to the realm of shadow.

I know my aunt has a book on such things but these are the ones that I am sure that are familiars. I think the young child would like the frog due to her sensibility but I will wait till I see Grim to discuss this further.

The Wyndes have changed and the voices grow louder. They will be heard.

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April 30, 06

I have come back to Trinsic the other day to find it empty. I was heart broken till I seen Grim's and Aylena's face and I knew I was back. It was strange to be back. My aunt's touch is still on my face. Her books safe within my understanding of location. I must find them. Within the books hold strange rituals lost since....I must not allow them to get into the hands of those murderers. I was able to see an old ritual done the calling of a soul. The fifth element...a ritual given to the medium elder. The keeper of the Sister's tomes and the ability to call back the dead. I wonder if Mlord would find such things useful? I was not able to tell Grim of my trip. It was very strange...like walking in a dream.

The moon shown bright and was very close, it seemed like I could touch the face of the goddess it was so close. The white robes and the soft firelight on the bodies of the dancers hurt my eyes. I could not contain myself, the music drew me to their circle. My body given to the drums and song of the night. I whipped my body around the fire...summoning the elemental forces to feed the fire brighter, the winds were stirring the leaves and branches of the trees and still my body brushed against exhaustion. When I spun around...facing me was my Aunt Fia. Her eyes mirrored pain, I quickly fell to my knees. She lifted me up and wrapped her arms around me. She called to the group, "Your sister has returned!" The rest all howled and screamed with delight.

My aunt called to sit with her she told me of her books and her legacy to me. I needed to find them and it would not be easy. The books were hidden very well. She would give me hints to the books as to the location. I did not know why she would want them to be found but she said that my new family would have need of them. She also stated her sorrow for my choice but glad to see that I have kept something from my life with her. I fear for the task at hand but I know it must be done.

To awake in a world with little and yet feel like I have been given much....

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December 28, 2006

*written with graceful strokes*

It seems one of the branches have fallen again....a happless man called Marcus Cane. Seems his family the Lasombre have gone from our world. I do not know what his intentions are, he has asked questions about the family and such. He is gifted with the shadows..manipulations. Interesting. I will present him to Mlord or Mlady. Not sure of his intentions though I do feel caution should be used.

May the hand of Fayte be bound to your will....

Please pardon the intrusion of a stranger to your home. I caught a glimpse of the whispered writings and was captured by my curious nature. My apologies if I have trespassed and my admiration to the hand that penned such musings.

April 1, 07

Been a long time since I wrote inside my lovely journal...did you miss me? Forgive me for allowing you to go to dust for so long....

Seems that Decardo has been seeking my help with an interesting end to his old life and his wish for a new one. I did help him considering someone else would not know what to gain from his friendship. But it was tested recently when I sent two of my loyal guardians into the Knight's Council. Seems that Decardo thought it was his place to tell of them to Lady Tabbitha and stated that Mlord Garod promised not to interfere. I was a bit upset but have not interfered with the council. He threatened the safety of my knights. I could not allow this and I told him. I will keep them in the council to learn of their motivations and to gather lists of those that would make my interests sour in this council. I would hate to see Decardo's new birth end so quickly, he was showing such promise.

Sisters of the Moon soon you will return upon this world....Keep Fayte at your side my dear Aunt and allow it to guide my actions. *a kiss sealed with blood*

Aug 24, 07

I have allowed my blood to be shared twice this night. Tonight Fargo was embraced. We hunted for the first time laying bodies of the brigands and gypsies to waste and allowed the captured nobles to know the peace found in death. He had a thirst I never seen. I enjoyed watching him as he approached his prey, knowing that the fate of its life tilted in his hand. Very unusual for Fargo to be that brutal, it was beautiful to see.

Later this evening I went to Trinsic, a guard there talked to me about Vad. It seems he has been seen nibbling on a young woman with braids. I met the child there in Trinsic. So I left as I attempted to discredit her attack. I later sent Fargo, Orlando, and Ripper to seek him out in Skara. It seems it took them some time to gather him and return Vad to me.

Once he arrived, I wanted to know why the guards know so much of the family. I had to wait for him to answer. So I had Orlando help him with loosening his tongue with the end of his sword. His excuses were enough to set me to frenzy. I knew that I would be punished if Lord Garod found out. So I decided that Vad's fate will be my own. I have decided to blood bond Vad to myself. His first feeding and sentence were carried out as witnessed by Sir Fargo, Orlando, and Ripper.



May the wind blow to soothe my temper.....

November 29, 07


With Fargo still missing my plans have been slowed. The winds have been sent to search for him however his essence have been felt in the city of Trinsic. I have not heard of any Mercenaries coming to my request. Seems that fear still strangles the new home of Tremere. I have decided to create a soul jar. Not sure if it will work. He will need to have something to keep his essence.

I will have to summon my Aunt and see what she knows of such things.


Jade

Dec. 29, 07 (all information is to be used as ooc information unless otherwise told in character or was a part of the activity)

Much has happened in the past few days. I will try to be short. I was in Trinsic today and met again with Jaston the poor jester has been lost for many days but has come to me and decided to join the family. Allow him time to find his direction and position within a new clan. He has shown loyalty by doing a task he brought me my dragon scale and my three pixie baubles. He has much to learn.

Also this evening a Miyuki who is a citizen of Trinsic has been afflicted with dreams. I do not understand but is seems she is remembering two lives. One parrell yet the same. Most curious. I have given her a star sapphire to help her focus her thoughts. But it seems Mr. Seagull has found it unsuitable for her to have the aid in which I offered. I escorted her to the Island with Flipper and Jaston in tow. Well the one called Sarge and the Kaldorian Mordred followed suit. Mordred who is now a member of the Duchy guard. Well they followed her inside and were very rude. They forgot whose land they were visiting. However I am more interested in her visions. They are jumbled and they hold something of interests. So I attempted to see to our Mr. Seagull, it seems he too is unique. I will watch carefully. But I doubt they will allow Miyuki to follow my request or allow to see to further "treatments" but I will not allow them have the last word.


May the moon guide my actions and keep my plans hidden.

Jan 6, 08

I feel that I am getting in too deep. My thoughts wander to the night of my anger and the steps that brought us to where the family is now. I have found my charges. However I do not see why these charges would be so easily be given without any purpose. I am toying with the thought of turning myself in however I will not see that come to pass.

I am working on something as of now. And it seems that the family is understanding and will do their best to see it become fruitful. I have set the pawns in place four of them all in a row. Thier is one more I will see to but it will depend on how successful it will become...

The Faytes are who I am, may the stars be aligned for my favor.